why am I always consumed by negativity

[Rachy]

Hi there, sorry, I must be boring everyone one to death with my posting here there and everywhere but its my way of coping at the minute.

To look at me you would think I was a perfectly normal person. People often comment how laid back I am! ha! if only they knew...

I have a lovely family, a lovely home, a succesful career as a singer, nothing much to worry about really...apart from this.

1. OCD
2. Panic attacks
3. Anxiety
4. A compulsive eating habit
5. Occasional bulimia (as a result of the compulsive eating).

What I need some help understanding is why am I always consumed by negative emotions rather than delighting in all the good things I have?

A normal day would consist of worrying about my OCD twitches for all my waking hours, coping with the associated stress and anxiety caused by worrying about this. Occasionally coping with a full blown panic attack. On some days I will over eat to try and take my mind off everything else and then be sick, then I will worry about the fact that I have done this or that I will put weight on.

As I have been like this for six years or so, I never allow myself to think how life used to be when I was'nt constantly worrying. I don't know what I used to think about all day!!

But anyway, why the constant negative thoughts? Is everyone else consumed by negative thoughts?xx

[honeybee3939]

Hi Rach

Try these links they may help.....

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/NMPcms.php?nmppage=coping

Thoughts
Lets try to keep our thoughts in perspective (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=283)
Mind Games (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1789)
obsessive thoughts & anxiety (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=3096)
Still suffering this damn "suggestive" thing.. (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=4288)
How to CURE yourself ! The definitive guide here.. (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5357)
Its happening again ! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6094)
Things to consider for success! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6165)
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image projection in my mind (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7358)

Dealing with negative thoughts
Dealing with negative thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7821)
How to stop negative thoughts? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=16081)

Love
:hugs:
Andrea
xxxxx

[PhantasyStar]

What I need some help understanding is why am I always consumed by negative emotions rather than delighting in all the good things I have?



Hey ya,

You know, i could have written that (and i have done in a fashion in one of my previous threads), to be honest, i am at a point in my life where i should be completely over the moon with how things are going and have gone for me since my divorce, i'm probably in the best position i've ever been and yet i'm still so unhappy, it's not that i want more, i think it's that every time something nice happens to me, i feel like maybe i don't deserve that to happen because i've been so used to so much bad luck from the past that i find it difficult to accept it sometimes to the point where i believe i will lose it all again (as i have done in the past). Like you, i should be really enjoying all the good things that's happened to me and not keep on dwelling on the past or if something is going to come along to take it all away again.

I hope you are OK,
Take Care.

[Kay29]

Hey there,

It sounds like you have alot going on right now. Want to join my club!While I firmely believe in alot of issues stemming from our childhoods I feel that if you visited your G.P. some medication would perhaps help with you on this difficult road of self recovery at this time.I suffered from Bulimia and I had to rely on medication to stop my self desructive behaviour. Negativity is our thoughts being critical and judgmental of ourselves. It may be the conditions of worth our parents or teachers put on us. Or it may be the conditions we put on ourself to feel good about ourselves. I believe that we need to accept ourselves with our imperfections (self love). It's about encourging our feelings and listening and trusting our selfs about we want in life.No matter what advice I or others give it is not until you ask yourself 'what would make you happy' will you truly find inner peace.

You are a unique and special person there is no one like you in this world.

[Bill]

As I have been like this for six years or so, I never allow myself to think how life used to be when I was'nt constantly worrying.

Which word have you used most in your thread? - WORRY
What happened 6 years ago that caused your problems to surface? - STRESS?

Add the 2 together and it'll probably explain why you now think negative thoughts - because whatever happened has now caused fear and that fear has knocked your confidence so that you now doubt yourself. Your doubt now causes worry about the future because you now live in fear which hadn't surfaced before.

I haven't seen your other posts but my guess is that 6 years ago you were going through a stressful period or you suffered a traumatic experience which caused severe anxiety leading to panic. I would also guess that the symptoms it produced has now caused you more worry so that you now fear the symptoms and the future, even though the stressful period or event that caused your original symptoms is long past.

You need to rebuild your confidence to stop you worrying less and then the fears will subside. Also limit the amount of stress you put yourself under as stress will trigger your symptoms.

Hope that helps.:hugs:

[Bill]

My panics started when I attended a meeting at work,

Looking back on your posts I found the above.

It appears that you were probably feeling under alot of stress at work and the meeting was the icing on the cake which triggered your panics.

The panics frightened you into a "fear of dying" because the symptoms were so scary so that now you're living in fear rather than enjoying "life".

When you suffer your OCD, what thoughts are you getting that are frightening you? Whatever they are will have been created by your stressful event.

The answer is really as I've said in my previous reply above because it's really about you regaining the confidence you lost because of the stressful period. I think the first part would probably be learning to not be afraid of panics because they are a natural reaction to stress so can't harm you and to not dwell on fearing them.:hugs:

I have a lovely family, a lovely home, a succesful career as a singer,

Something I forgot to add is that you probably feel you have alot to lose and this fear will create stress which will cause more panics which in turn will make you actually feel you will lose everything so cause more worry in a vicious circle. You need to take each day at a time and find enjoyment in each day rather than live in fear of the future and of losing the things you have. Learn how to relax and take a more laid back approach to life by accepting that we cannot control everything.