Oni
18-11-04, 07:50
hello,
my name is phil and it's nice to be here, a few things about myself...i am 16 years old, i live in north carolina and i beleive i may have a panic/anxiety problem. i am not sure if this is the right place to put this but i am going through one of those moments right now and i just want some help...so here is my story....
About a week ago i woke up, watched some tv and poked around online and stuff like that. i started to smoke a bit of marijuana i had bought a couple days before,i was smoking out of a gravity bong ( if you don't know what it is, basically you get a very large amount of smoke out of it in one hit) well after taking a very large hit off of it i just sat in my computer chair and relaxed. after a while i started to notice something odd, i beleived i had somehow done something terrible to my jaw, and thought it had dropped a bit (very very stoned at this point) so i started to freak out, went to the bathroom several times to see if anything actually was wrong with my jaw and nothing was. i figured i was just having a bad high so i decided to sleep it off, well i couldn't sleep..it was just stuck in my head i had a mouth like a donkey or something. That is when i started to notice something else, my heart beat was rapidly increasing...i still tried to sleep but it didn't work, my heart kept going faster and faster...i was starting to get very worried at this point because i was born with a heart murmur, thinking it could have affected it somehow. i tried my best to ignore it for awhile but it just kept going faster, i finally got tired of it and ran downstairs to tell my mom, i couldn't even speak straight...all i remember getting out of my mouth was "something is wrong" i couldn't even explain what i had done or what happened, and off to the hospital we went. in the car i was able to get myself together enough to explain the situation...she gave me a few tips on ways to get my heart rate down, but none of them worked. heart rate was changing alot, my mom checked it and said i was going at about 125 beats per minute. we got to the hospital and they didn't really do much...hooked me up to a EKG and a respiratory monitor, took a chest x ray to check my heart and pretty much sent me home saying nothing was wrong, 500$ in bills to lay on a bed for 5 hours. (with no insurance too..) and ever since then i have felt this pressure in my chest, i have since quit smoking, drinking and whatever else. i did smoke a little bit about 3 days after the visit to see what the effects would be, since i had read up on panic/anxiety attacks; terrible idea...it happened again and i had a little bit more control this time, there was the same feeling of pressure in my chest as before and then i tried to check my heart rate....after about 20 seconds something happened that wasn't right..it felt like my heart just stopped and i got cold sensations all over my body. after about 2 hours the attack went away, and i was left with the pressure in my chest that has been there since i left the hospital. today i still have this pressure, and every now and then the cold sensations...i know those are some symptoms of panic and i have started to handle them better. i have been way to scared to check my heart rate again since the last time..every time i get the cold chills it feels like my heart stopped again (i don't know if it does or not, too scared to feel...) thought of death start going through my head and i start to panic again. i have noticed a few things that i beleive may affect this, caffeinated soda, sugar, salt, even when i play guitar it feels as if the sound waves are bothering my heart. i have not smoked anything or drank any kind of alcohol (very little soda too, usually water now.) it feels like there is something in the left side of my neck but i don't even know what that could be...i don't know how to explain it. i have also been pretty cold when it is a fair temperature in my room. sometimes a pressure on the right side of my chest too, possibly by my lung. i have gotten to become scared to do alot of things,
my name is phil and it's nice to be here, a few things about myself...i am 16 years old, i live in north carolina and i beleive i may have a panic/anxiety problem. i am not sure if this is the right place to put this but i am going through one of those moments right now and i just want some help...so here is my story....
About a week ago i woke up, watched some tv and poked around online and stuff like that. i started to smoke a bit of marijuana i had bought a couple days before,i was smoking out of a gravity bong ( if you don't know what it is, basically you get a very large amount of smoke out of it in one hit) well after taking a very large hit off of it i just sat in my computer chair and relaxed. after a while i started to notice something odd, i beleived i had somehow done something terrible to my jaw, and thought it had dropped a bit (very very stoned at this point) so i started to freak out, went to the bathroom several times to see if anything actually was wrong with my jaw and nothing was. i figured i was just having a bad high so i decided to sleep it off, well i couldn't sleep..it was just stuck in my head i had a mouth like a donkey or something. That is when i started to notice something else, my heart beat was rapidly increasing...i still tried to sleep but it didn't work, my heart kept going faster and faster...i was starting to get very worried at this point because i was born with a heart murmur, thinking it could have affected it somehow. i tried my best to ignore it for awhile but it just kept going faster, i finally got tired of it and ran downstairs to tell my mom, i couldn't even speak straight...all i remember getting out of my mouth was "something is wrong" i couldn't even explain what i had done or what happened, and off to the hospital we went. in the car i was able to get myself together enough to explain the situation...she gave me a few tips on ways to get my heart rate down, but none of them worked. heart rate was changing alot, my mom checked it and said i was going at about 125 beats per minute. we got to the hospital and they didn't really do much...hooked me up to a EKG and a respiratory monitor, took a chest x ray to check my heart and pretty much sent me home saying nothing was wrong, 500$ in bills to lay on a bed for 5 hours. (with no insurance too..) and ever since then i have felt this pressure in my chest, i have since quit smoking, drinking and whatever else. i did smoke a little bit about 3 days after the visit to see what the effects would be, since i had read up on panic/anxiety attacks; terrible idea...it happened again and i had a little bit more control this time, there was the same feeling of pressure in my chest as before and then i tried to check my heart rate....after about 20 seconds something happened that wasn't right..it felt like my heart just stopped and i got cold sensations all over my body. after about 2 hours the attack went away, and i was left with the pressure in my chest that has been there since i left the hospital. today i still have this pressure, and every now and then the cold sensations...i know those are some symptoms of panic and i have started to handle them better. i have been way to scared to check my heart rate again since the last time..every time i get the cold chills it feels like my heart stopped again (i don't know if it does or not, too scared to feel...) thought of death start going through my head and i start to panic again. i have noticed a few things that i beleive may affect this, caffeinated soda, sugar, salt, even when i play guitar it feels as if the sound waves are bothering my heart. i have not smoked anything or drank any kind of alcohol (very little soda too, usually water now.) it feels like there is something in the left side of my neck but i don't even know what that could be...i don't know how to explain it. i have also been pretty cold when it is a fair temperature in my room. sometimes a pressure on the right side of my chest too, possibly by my lung. i have gotten to become scared to do alot of things,