cosmicfire
12-08-17, 18:18
What is triggering my harm thoughts now is when I watched those shows like CSI and Criminal minds and they all describe the killers as these loner types.
I always been shy. And had social anxiety since I was 12. But I always had friends and loved to go out and play with them and hang when growing up. In my teen years I became a real loner because my friends left me and bullied me for being different. (It was not until a few years later signs were figured out that I was a high functioning autistic.)
I am extremely interverted. I have like three close friends at least near as close. I would like to go out more but my anxiety gets really bad if I think of making plans that normally someone else has to make them and I still feel that anxiety.
I also have depression and none for lashing out in anger. I get irritated easily. And I become emotionally numb over the 12 years I have had depression.
So I worry that I fit the description of those that they claim are the way they are when they hurt people (right now it is tipping with pocd as well as harm) The thoughts make me anxious then there are times I don't react to them or they come into my dreams and I worry.
I always been shy. And had social anxiety since I was 12. But I always had friends and loved to go out and play with them and hang when growing up. In my teen years I became a real loner because my friends left me and bullied me for being different. (It was not until a few years later signs were figured out that I was a high functioning autistic.)
I am extremely interverted. I have like three close friends at least near as close. I would like to go out more but my anxiety gets really bad if I think of making plans that normally someone else has to make them and I still feel that anxiety.
I also have depression and none for lashing out in anger. I get irritated easily. And I become emotionally numb over the 12 years I have had depression.
So I worry that I fit the description of those that they claim are the way they are when they hurt people (right now it is tipping with pocd as well as harm) The thoughts make me anxious then there are times I don't react to them or they come into my dreams and I worry.