Juggar
14-08-17, 07:10
Anyone else struggling with this? I feel like If I could get over this id be cured completely of my anxiety/OCD.
Its basically like im aware of my breathing all the time and when I think of my breathing or some other involuntary function it makes me think of my anxiety (which comes from this and previous insomnia) and thus is a vicious cycle that just repeats itself.
I think of breathing, blinking, itching and even walking.... its like a hyper focus on mundane everyday things a normal person would never give the time of day to and honestly its very irritating and generates many anxious feelings. I had this once when I was like 12 but got over it almost instantly when someone told me how it was involuntary. I know this now as an adult of course I guess its just the Anxiety of "what if I never forget about this horrible breathing OCD thing?" I guess its just self fulfilling. :doh:
Another major fear was not being able to sleep because of the "manual breathing" but that never once happened to me but the irrational thought is still there, ever present.
Normally you'd forget about this sort of thing quickly with some distraction but since this has been such a huge and dominating part of my life for the past 10 months I cant simply just "forget" about it.
Good lord I just want this to be over so I can finally move on with my life.
Its basically like im aware of my breathing all the time and when I think of my breathing or some other involuntary function it makes me think of my anxiety (which comes from this and previous insomnia) and thus is a vicious cycle that just repeats itself.
I think of breathing, blinking, itching and even walking.... its like a hyper focus on mundane everyday things a normal person would never give the time of day to and honestly its very irritating and generates many anxious feelings. I had this once when I was like 12 but got over it almost instantly when someone told me how it was involuntary. I know this now as an adult of course I guess its just the Anxiety of "what if I never forget about this horrible breathing OCD thing?" I guess its just self fulfilling. :doh:
Another major fear was not being able to sleep because of the "manual breathing" but that never once happened to me but the irrational thought is still there, ever present.
Normally you'd forget about this sort of thing quickly with some distraction but since this has been such a huge and dominating part of my life for the past 10 months I cant simply just "forget" about it.
Good lord I just want this to be over so I can finally move on with my life.