nomoremouse
16-08-17, 18:02
Hi everyone,
I'm new here and my anxiety is spiraling out of control for many reasons but the issue I'm having right now is coping with a night of heavy drinking. Every time I drink heavily, I always have this guilt and sure I said something to offend someone or did something bad. But 99 percent of the time nothing bad has happened. Anyway, I'm married and very happily married for 4 fours. Lately a lot has been going on in my life and my anxiety is spiraling out of control. The other day I went out drinking with some coworkers. I have a new job and don't know these people all that well. Since I have bad social anxiety, I drank way too much. Only two people saw me really drunk, a girl and a guy who acts flirty towards me (he's married but doesn't seem all that committed to his wife but I really don't know how their marriage is)
Anyway, I blacked out for the last 30 min of the night. My big fear here is that I cheated on my husband. I know I was texting my husband and the girl was still there at 11:36 and know I left at 12:08. But the guy is having a ball teasing me. He was not wanting to tell what what I did but was giving hints here and there. He said I asked him to get in my uber with me (tho I don't know if I meant it romantically) and I asked him if I did anything worse than that and he said "There were some things" but he didn't want to say. He says it was just me and him at the very end which makes me nervous. I asked him flat out if he and I did anything and he said no, I was crazy and that he would have said so. But he kept just being vague and hinting and I was starting to freak out.
I love my husband and literally have no desire to cheat and I also don't have feelings for this guy. I don't feel like I did anything and have no memory but I am nervous that I was very drunk alone with a guy that flirts with me. And him hinting to me and not being straight with me is leading me to believe that something did happen but he could be just messing with me.
Anyway, even though I have zero evidence for anything happening I can't let it go and dying inside.
I'm new here and my anxiety is spiraling out of control for many reasons but the issue I'm having right now is coping with a night of heavy drinking. Every time I drink heavily, I always have this guilt and sure I said something to offend someone or did something bad. But 99 percent of the time nothing bad has happened. Anyway, I'm married and very happily married for 4 fours. Lately a lot has been going on in my life and my anxiety is spiraling out of control. The other day I went out drinking with some coworkers. I have a new job and don't know these people all that well. Since I have bad social anxiety, I drank way too much. Only two people saw me really drunk, a girl and a guy who acts flirty towards me (he's married but doesn't seem all that committed to his wife but I really don't know how their marriage is)
Anyway, I blacked out for the last 30 min of the night. My big fear here is that I cheated on my husband. I know I was texting my husband and the girl was still there at 11:36 and know I left at 12:08. But the guy is having a ball teasing me. He was not wanting to tell what what I did but was giving hints here and there. He said I asked him to get in my uber with me (tho I don't know if I meant it romantically) and I asked him if I did anything worse than that and he said "There were some things" but he didn't want to say. He says it was just me and him at the very end which makes me nervous. I asked him flat out if he and I did anything and he said no, I was crazy and that he would have said so. But he kept just being vague and hinting and I was starting to freak out.
I love my husband and literally have no desire to cheat and I also don't have feelings for this guy. I don't feel like I did anything and have no memory but I am nervous that I was very drunk alone with a guy that flirts with me. And him hinting to me and not being straight with me is leading me to believe that something did happen but he could be just messing with me.
Anyway, even though I have zero evidence for anything happening I can't let it go and dying inside.