Munki
18-08-17, 18:56
A friends birthday do this weekend has left me in a muddle. I can't go now as my Father in Law has had some bad news today; I'm staying to be with my hubby.
The do has cost me £159 for hotel, £90 for diner plus train tickets and drinks. They have a lot of money and this probably reflects that. I didn't want to go in the end as this really isn't my scene; I was simply wanting to 'do the right thing' and celebrate my friends 40th with her.
However, I can't get out of my head the fact that she had 14 couples going whom of which she claims are all 'dear friends'. Its actually made me feel completely inferior.
You may know that I have an issue with not being popular enough which, at 41, quite frankly, is preposterous. I know a lot of people but constantly feel I'm not popular enough for not having a group of friends.
Given the sad news today, I'm hating myself for even allowing myself to feel this. It's so very self absorbed.
I blame social media!!!
The do has cost me £159 for hotel, £90 for diner plus train tickets and drinks. They have a lot of money and this probably reflects that. I didn't want to go in the end as this really isn't my scene; I was simply wanting to 'do the right thing' and celebrate my friends 40th with her.
However, I can't get out of my head the fact that she had 14 couples going whom of which she claims are all 'dear friends'. Its actually made me feel completely inferior.
You may know that I have an issue with not being popular enough which, at 41, quite frankly, is preposterous. I know a lot of people but constantly feel I'm not popular enough for not having a group of friends.
Given the sad news today, I'm hating myself for even allowing myself to feel this. It's so very self absorbed.
I blame social media!!!