MyWorriesAndMe
29-08-17, 22:55
Hello,
I'm Ashlie, a 27 year old student nurse from Liverpool. I don't really know what to say now besides the obvious, I have generalized anxiety disorder & panic attacks. Although I was always a worried child my first real experience of anxiety was triggered by 9/11 when I was 11 years old. Since then I have struggled massively with crowds & public transport. I seemed to just plod along with this thinking it was normal up until last year when I had my first panic attack. I know now that the extreme episodes of anxiety I'd been having for the past 15 -16 years on public transport which caused me to get off and walk for miles on end rather than sit in a situation where I felt like I was going to die from a disaster or die from the heart attack that was building on my chest were panic attacks too. Again I managed to get by without anxiety having a major hold on my life until the Manchester Arena attack in May. Since then I have been living in a constant state of anxiety and often have multiple panic attacks in a week. I have been prescribed 40mg Propranolol & have started CBT today. I'm so scared I'm never going to return the semi normal person I was before. I'm starting to really struggle with the thought of even leaving the house and as a very outgoing person I am finding this difficult to come to terms with. I feel like my life isn't my own anymore and that my fears and worries are dictating it for me.
I'm desperate to talk to anyone who can relate as I feel like I'm driving my poor boyfriend round the bend!
xXx
I'm Ashlie, a 27 year old student nurse from Liverpool. I don't really know what to say now besides the obvious, I have generalized anxiety disorder & panic attacks. Although I was always a worried child my first real experience of anxiety was triggered by 9/11 when I was 11 years old. Since then I have struggled massively with crowds & public transport. I seemed to just plod along with this thinking it was normal up until last year when I had my first panic attack. I know now that the extreme episodes of anxiety I'd been having for the past 15 -16 years on public transport which caused me to get off and walk for miles on end rather than sit in a situation where I felt like I was going to die from a disaster or die from the heart attack that was building on my chest were panic attacks too. Again I managed to get by without anxiety having a major hold on my life until the Manchester Arena attack in May. Since then I have been living in a constant state of anxiety and often have multiple panic attacks in a week. I have been prescribed 40mg Propranolol & have started CBT today. I'm so scared I'm never going to return the semi normal person I was before. I'm starting to really struggle with the thought of even leaving the house and as a very outgoing person I am finding this difficult to come to terms with. I feel like my life isn't my own anymore and that my fears and worries are dictating it for me.
I'm desperate to talk to anyone who can relate as I feel like I'm driving my poor boyfriend round the bend!
xXx