TheAnxiousWriter
08-09-17, 19:04
Hey! It has actually been quite a long time since I've posted, but for years I've been having a problem that I'm not sure is a genuine mental issue or just me being silly.
I was bullied quite often in school and the teachers would react in such a way that made me feel like it was my fault. By the final year, I'm pretty sure I was hated by almost every peer that knew me.
Not only that, but since the second or third year in that school, I had joined a site which was great for making friends and sharing stories. It sounded lovely in my mind, yet a lot of people there had the same issues I did and we kind of fed off of each other.
It's extremely difficult to describe how it feels. All I can say is that I call them "episodes" or "mood drops". The most common thing that triggers this is if i made a mistake, no matter how small, my mind will go through every mistake a made in the past and tell myself that everyone hates me for them and continue to laugh about them. When I feel lonely this happens too. These things will either make me cry or snap at people.
I'm stuck in a rut and I'm afraid that all of this is my fault or I'm just an insecure person being overly dramatic about my problems. Is this just it?
---------- Post added at 19:04 ---------- Previous post was at 17:31 ----------
Bump.
I was bullied quite often in school and the teachers would react in such a way that made me feel like it was my fault. By the final year, I'm pretty sure I was hated by almost every peer that knew me.
Not only that, but since the second or third year in that school, I had joined a site which was great for making friends and sharing stories. It sounded lovely in my mind, yet a lot of people there had the same issues I did and we kind of fed off of each other.
It's extremely difficult to describe how it feels. All I can say is that I call them "episodes" or "mood drops". The most common thing that triggers this is if i made a mistake, no matter how small, my mind will go through every mistake a made in the past and tell myself that everyone hates me for them and continue to laugh about them. When I feel lonely this happens too. These things will either make me cry or snap at people.
I'm stuck in a rut and I'm afraid that all of this is my fault or I'm just an insecure person being overly dramatic about my problems. Is this just it?
---------- Post added at 19:04 ---------- Previous post was at 17:31 ----------
Bump.