Rell87
17-09-17, 22:01
Hi guys. Im new to this forum so please be gentle. Ive suffered with anxiety/depression for most of my life but lately I feel like its getting worse.
Im constantly plagued with worries that something bad is going to happen to my partner or daughter. If my partner is more than 10 minutes late from work I start getting panicky thinking hes been in an accident or something bad has happened, to the point of having heart palpitations, light headedness and being a crying mess. Every night before I go to sleep I have to go in my daughters room and check shes breathing or else I get panicky that if I dont something bad will happen to her. Its driving me insane being constantly on edge, jumping at every little thing, always worrying something bad is going to happen. Some days I dont want to get out of bed. The thought of leaving the house and going to work makes me so nervous. Theres been times ive sat on the bus trying to fight back tears because ive worked myself up so much. Its like im in a battle with my own mind.
But by far the worst part is the affect it has on my relationship. My partner doesnt understand why I "let" my anxiety affect me. He takes it as an insult to him and our relationship when I get paranoid that hes embarrassed of me or that I get frustrated when he doesnt let me know hes going to be late. I ty to explain I cant help it and I wish I wasnt this way but he doesnt seem to have any empathy. Id give anything to be able to make him understand just how stressful it is being in my head.
I tried citalopram but didnt really feel like it made much difference. I tried meditating a few times but just couldn't concentrate. I know I need to go back to the docs but I get so anxious theyll think im wasting their time or they just wont care. Its so disheartening :weep:
Im constantly plagued with worries that something bad is going to happen to my partner or daughter. If my partner is more than 10 minutes late from work I start getting panicky thinking hes been in an accident or something bad has happened, to the point of having heart palpitations, light headedness and being a crying mess. Every night before I go to sleep I have to go in my daughters room and check shes breathing or else I get panicky that if I dont something bad will happen to her. Its driving me insane being constantly on edge, jumping at every little thing, always worrying something bad is going to happen. Some days I dont want to get out of bed. The thought of leaving the house and going to work makes me so nervous. Theres been times ive sat on the bus trying to fight back tears because ive worked myself up so much. Its like im in a battle with my own mind.
But by far the worst part is the affect it has on my relationship. My partner doesnt understand why I "let" my anxiety affect me. He takes it as an insult to him and our relationship when I get paranoid that hes embarrassed of me or that I get frustrated when he doesnt let me know hes going to be late. I ty to explain I cant help it and I wish I wasnt this way but he doesnt seem to have any empathy. Id give anything to be able to make him understand just how stressful it is being in my head.
I tried citalopram but didnt really feel like it made much difference. I tried meditating a few times but just couldn't concentrate. I know I need to go back to the docs but I get so anxious theyll think im wasting their time or they just wont care. Its so disheartening :weep: