jamiecatherine
22-09-17, 20:41
I've been a ghost on this forum but quite some time, but now that I feel so hopeless, I hope you all can give me some advice.
About three weeks ago, I was performing at a football game with my university color guard. The girls were saying there were bats flying above us while we were waiting in the stands between quarters of the game, and I was instantly triggered. I've had a phobia of rabies for the past three years, which as set my health back countless times... But it's never gotten this bad.
When I got home, I noticed marks on my hand that looked similar to what might be a bat bite. I don't remember the bats coming near us. I asked the girls constantly throughout the weeks if the bats came near us, and they all told me no... When I think about it, it wouldn't make sense. We were in a group, why would a bat single me out? How could a bat get near me without anyone else knowing? I was very aware of the bats, too... so how could they come near me without me noticing? The band was playing tunes, which would probably keep the bats away, right? I didn't feel anything touch my hand. But, I've searched the web enough to know that people have been bitten by bats without even knowing it.
I told myself that the marks could have been anything... I had just come from my job at Starbucks, an 8 hour shift, before going to the game that day. But now, I regret not going to the hospital as soon as I found the marks. The picture of my hand the night I saw these marks is attached.
For the past two weeks, all I have been able to think about is how I'm going to die of rabies. I've had a headache that comes and goes for two weeks. Sometimes it's a pain that feels constricting around my entire front of head, other times sharp pains on the side. My head is starting to feel so tight that I even feel pressure in my ears. My hand where the "bite" was located tingles from time to time. Last night, I developed a tight chest, which is only making me think I'm closer to death... I feel like I have to pee all the time. These "symptoms" are terrifying. I know they could all be from anxiety, but I'm so afraid that it's because I'm going to die.
I went to an urgent care clinic last week, where I showed the doctor a picture of what was on my hand, and he told me that I definitely had not been bitten by a bat. He prescribed me Hydroxyzine for anxiety. It calms my nerves but doesn't help with my physical symptoms. I've been going to my school's therapist, who told me that if I would have been able to tell if a bat got close enough to bite me. I even have a friend who works with bats look at the picture of my hand, too, and tell me that what was on my hand doesn't look like a bite from a bat, and that I would have been able to feel it.
I'm really at a loss of what to do. I'm about to see another doctor today to see what they have to say... Thank you to anyone who provides feedback/support.
About three weeks ago, I was performing at a football game with my university color guard. The girls were saying there were bats flying above us while we were waiting in the stands between quarters of the game, and I was instantly triggered. I've had a phobia of rabies for the past three years, which as set my health back countless times... But it's never gotten this bad.
When I got home, I noticed marks on my hand that looked similar to what might be a bat bite. I don't remember the bats coming near us. I asked the girls constantly throughout the weeks if the bats came near us, and they all told me no... When I think about it, it wouldn't make sense. We were in a group, why would a bat single me out? How could a bat get near me without anyone else knowing? I was very aware of the bats, too... so how could they come near me without me noticing? The band was playing tunes, which would probably keep the bats away, right? I didn't feel anything touch my hand. But, I've searched the web enough to know that people have been bitten by bats without even knowing it.
I told myself that the marks could have been anything... I had just come from my job at Starbucks, an 8 hour shift, before going to the game that day. But now, I regret not going to the hospital as soon as I found the marks. The picture of my hand the night I saw these marks is attached.
For the past two weeks, all I have been able to think about is how I'm going to die of rabies. I've had a headache that comes and goes for two weeks. Sometimes it's a pain that feels constricting around my entire front of head, other times sharp pains on the side. My head is starting to feel so tight that I even feel pressure in my ears. My hand where the "bite" was located tingles from time to time. Last night, I developed a tight chest, which is only making me think I'm closer to death... I feel like I have to pee all the time. These "symptoms" are terrifying. I know they could all be from anxiety, but I'm so afraid that it's because I'm going to die.
I went to an urgent care clinic last week, where I showed the doctor a picture of what was on my hand, and he told me that I definitely had not been bitten by a bat. He prescribed me Hydroxyzine for anxiety. It calms my nerves but doesn't help with my physical symptoms. I've been going to my school's therapist, who told me that if I would have been able to tell if a bat got close enough to bite me. I even have a friend who works with bats look at the picture of my hand, too, and tell me that what was on my hand doesn't look like a bite from a bat, and that I would have been able to feel it.
I'm really at a loss of what to do. I'm about to see another doctor today to see what they have to say... Thank you to anyone who provides feedback/support.