Hypomean
28-09-17, 01:12
Okay I don't know what exactly is going on.
After being stuck at home for a few days. I went out, on my route to run errands, I see a newly placed cross on the side of the road... :( come to find out it's this man and his dog that were Hit by a car. I saw this man everyday so it's sad that I won't be seeing him anymore.
And a few hours later.
on my way home I see a bunch of police, ambulances, fire trucks going into a neighborhood close to mine. It caused me panic.
I feel like I caused this... why?? Just last week I was listening to the radio about the natural disasters. And I thought " this community is so small what would happen if something did happen here" and the area where I thought this so happens to be were all of the above happened :(.
I have the bad anxiety with horrible symptoms why????
Seeing all the ambulances gave me panic and made me feel like it was a sign that the next ambulance that will come my way will be for me :(
I have been hyperventilating I have been having chests pains and just this very horrible feeling of anxiety. Along with shakiness and I am super hyper. Loose stomach.
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That I caused it by bringing bad vibes.
Every time I think about it like that I get more anxious to the point I want to scream out/cry.
High levels of anxiety just cause me to cry. Bad. I have talked to a therapist about it and she said it's bent up energy and that if I could to just go for it cry it out or scream it out.
After being stuck at home for a few days. I went out, on my route to run errands, I see a newly placed cross on the side of the road... :( come to find out it's this man and his dog that were Hit by a car. I saw this man everyday so it's sad that I won't be seeing him anymore.
And a few hours later.
on my way home I see a bunch of police, ambulances, fire trucks going into a neighborhood close to mine. It caused me panic.
I feel like I caused this... why?? Just last week I was listening to the radio about the natural disasters. And I thought " this community is so small what would happen if something did happen here" and the area where I thought this so happens to be were all of the above happened :(.
I have the bad anxiety with horrible symptoms why????
Seeing all the ambulances gave me panic and made me feel like it was a sign that the next ambulance that will come my way will be for me :(
I have been hyperventilating I have been having chests pains and just this very horrible feeling of anxiety. Along with shakiness and I am super hyper. Loose stomach.
---------- Post added at 00:12 ---------- Previous post was at 00:06 ----------
That I caused it by bringing bad vibes.
Every time I think about it like that I get more anxious to the point I want to scream out/cry.
High levels of anxiety just cause me to cry. Bad. I have talked to a therapist about it and she said it's bent up energy and that if I could to just go for it cry it out or scream it out.