LoopyLou
27-11-04, 12:56
Hi All,
I feel I have to post this message as I feel so bad at the moment. I visited this site for the first time a few weeks ago to get advice on how to overcome panic attacks and anxiety and was overwhelmed by the kindness of everyone. I have read hundreds of posts to try to get tips on beating these things and have even managed to give up drinking (two weeks and counting) I really thought things where starting to improve, as I've been watching me diet, no booze, trying to keep the stress levels down and then yesterday on the way home from work I started crying for no reason, the tears where filling up in my eyes I could hardly see, and for the next two hours I just sobbed and sobbed. I phoned my Mum and Sister, I didn't let them know how I felt just wanted to hear someones voice. It seems that as well as having the fear of the panic attacks and anxiety God has decided to throw in a massive big fat lump of depression to add insult to injury. I have suffered with depression in the past but not for along time now. I even had the thought cross my mind yesterday just for a split second to end it all. I am dreading going home for Christmas as I know all my family will be happy and having a good drink and looking forward to the new year and I just feel like I should lock myself away here as I'll just put a downer on it all and ruin everything. I know it may have alot to do with the drink, I know I can't have it cause it will bring on an attack but I just think "why I can't I do normal things like have an effin half lager if I fancy one" sorry for my tone, I am just so unhappy, I am even[V] getting anxious about going christmas shopping as my first attack happened while out shopping on my own, I know I have to carry on as normal but anyone who has suffered with depression will know you feel like you are in a big black deep pit and there's no way out.
I just want to get back to how I used to be, no cares, no worries..happy.
If anyone has any words of help they would be so appreciated.
Laura
Trying to smile when your sad is like skiing backwards up a hill with no ski's.
I feel I have to post this message as I feel so bad at the moment. I visited this site for the first time a few weeks ago to get advice on how to overcome panic attacks and anxiety and was overwhelmed by the kindness of everyone. I have read hundreds of posts to try to get tips on beating these things and have even managed to give up drinking (two weeks and counting) I really thought things where starting to improve, as I've been watching me diet, no booze, trying to keep the stress levels down and then yesterday on the way home from work I started crying for no reason, the tears where filling up in my eyes I could hardly see, and for the next two hours I just sobbed and sobbed. I phoned my Mum and Sister, I didn't let them know how I felt just wanted to hear someones voice. It seems that as well as having the fear of the panic attacks and anxiety God has decided to throw in a massive big fat lump of depression to add insult to injury. I have suffered with depression in the past but not for along time now. I even had the thought cross my mind yesterday just for a split second to end it all. I am dreading going home for Christmas as I know all my family will be happy and having a good drink and looking forward to the new year and I just feel like I should lock myself away here as I'll just put a downer on it all and ruin everything. I know it may have alot to do with the drink, I know I can't have it cause it will bring on an attack but I just think "why I can't I do normal things like have an effin half lager if I fancy one" sorry for my tone, I am just so unhappy, I am even[V] getting anxious about going christmas shopping as my first attack happened while out shopping on my own, I know I have to carry on as normal but anyone who has suffered with depression will know you feel like you are in a big black deep pit and there's no way out.
I just want to get back to how I used to be, no cares, no worries..happy.
If anyone has any words of help they would be so appreciated.
Laura
Trying to smile when your sad is like skiing backwards up a hill with no ski's.