positivegirly
05-10-17, 08:30
Hi Guys...back again! I am struggling yet again with anxiety about my work. I have a job, been there over a year now and I still don’t like it, I worry every day about it, I dont feel like I have ever really grasped it completely and I think work colleagues think I’m strange, I definitely do not fit in, even after being there for over a year. It’s been hard the last few months,there have been a few changes happening which I struggle with anyway but it’s pushed my work anxiety issues through the roof. I also added fuel to the fire when I started frantically applying for other jobs within the same place but different departments just to be able to leave my current job, I was going to be offered one a few weeks ago but a colleague completely put me off right before the interview and I ended up turning it down, I moved on from that pretty quickly although I felt silly and guilty. I was offered another position just this week but due to the commute i would have to endure I had to turn it down, I didn’t realise it would be based at another location and it just would not have worked as I live so far away, the hiring manager was not very pleased and made this very clear on the phone, I have since then spent the last few days feeling sad, very guilty I wasted their time and very much a failure. My confidence and self esteem are at an all time low and I cannot seem to find joy in anything right now. I don’t like talking to family about it because I feel like I’m a burden with all my problems. I don’t know what else to do. I feel very very low :-(