80schild
05-10-17, 23:05
Hi, I have not posted on here for a long time. I have HA which tends to flare up when I don't have any 'real' problems or focus going on, in other words when I have more time to think. I am a 37 year old mum of two and my kids are my whole world. I am a single mum and am so terrified of dying before they grow up.
I have previously been worried over skin cancer, ovarian cancer, motor neurone disease most specifically.
This recent episode of it started in June when someone asked if I had lost my voice. I then became obssessed my voice was hoarse and googled it. Firstly I convinced myself it was throat cancer, then when I looked at other cancers I began to think it could be my oesophagus as sometimes I felt a lump sensation and food seemed to scratch in my throat as it was going down and I'd get a burning sensation at the back of my throat. I also get tight feeling in my throat and chest.
This obsession then switched to pancreatic cancer when I started to feel intermitent feelings of fullness or mild pain on the left side. Additionally I convinced myself my eyes looked yellow.
Now in addition to this for the last two weeks I have been passing hard pebble like stool with mucus covering it. I have had this previously in the past but of course now I am thinking colon cancer. I have recently given up drinking but when I was drinking I was the opposite, constant loose stool if I had had more than a glass of wine the night before (this is why I quit drinking). My diet is really bad at the moment too-the logic part of me says these symptoms are down to not eating enough fibre (most of my daily intake is biscuits and chocolate) but the irrational part keeps saying I am full of cancer everywhere.
Other than these vague symptoms I am fit and healthy, don't feel tired which again logic tells me would not be the case if I were riddled with cancer but then I will read or hear about a 25 year old gym goer who found out she had stage 4 cancer on a routine doctors appointment and logic goes out of the window.
I have previously been worried over skin cancer, ovarian cancer, motor neurone disease most specifically.
This recent episode of it started in June when someone asked if I had lost my voice. I then became obssessed my voice was hoarse and googled it. Firstly I convinced myself it was throat cancer, then when I looked at other cancers I began to think it could be my oesophagus as sometimes I felt a lump sensation and food seemed to scratch in my throat as it was going down and I'd get a burning sensation at the back of my throat. I also get tight feeling in my throat and chest.
This obsession then switched to pancreatic cancer when I started to feel intermitent feelings of fullness or mild pain on the left side. Additionally I convinced myself my eyes looked yellow.
Now in addition to this for the last two weeks I have been passing hard pebble like stool with mucus covering it. I have had this previously in the past but of course now I am thinking colon cancer. I have recently given up drinking but when I was drinking I was the opposite, constant loose stool if I had had more than a glass of wine the night before (this is why I quit drinking). My diet is really bad at the moment too-the logic part of me says these symptoms are down to not eating enough fibre (most of my daily intake is biscuits and chocolate) but the irrational part keeps saying I am full of cancer everywhere.
Other than these vague symptoms I am fit and healthy, don't feel tired which again logic tells me would not be the case if I were riddled with cancer but then I will read or hear about a 25 year old gym goer who found out she had stage 4 cancer on a routine doctors appointment and logic goes out of the window.