kittenwitten
27-11-04, 15:10
Im not sure where to start as I don't remember a begining, this seems to be a problem I have had for a long time that I didn't persue an answer for.
Basically I have been getting very light headed in certain situations and for years I just asumed it was nothing. The worst times seem to be in supermarkets and after being sick in Marks and Spencers as a child a neighbour mentioned it could be a bad reaction to flourescent lighting but I never got it checked out. I have always felt uncomfortable under this lighting and feel like im going to faint and need to sit down, sometimes like im in virtual reality and not quite real but never like room is spinning and I have never lost conciousness. I didnt tell anyone for years but have now read about people in similar situations and realise its not just me.
Now I am 24 and my boyfriend and I are wanting to move to Canada in the next few years so this is why everything has come to the surface now and I feel it finally has to be addressed.
It is at the point now where I can go into shops if I have to but I dont enjoy it so I have started buying grocerys online. I am so concious of it now I am wound up before I even go in a shop.
I went to an aerobics class a couple of weeks ago where it was just a small cozy class in my village. The room had flourescent lights and I felt like I could pass out at any minute through the whole hour I was there. I couldnt seem to keep up with any of the basic dance routines and I was positively clumsy with zero coordination. I was a dancer for 12 years up until the age of 15 so there is no way I should have gotten so clumsy, my friend kept up and she has 2 left feet!
After the class I made a doctors appointment, something I aviod doing as I hate doctors I am hugely squeemish and dont believe much in medicine. My appointment was for 5.40pm (after work) and I didnt get in to see the doctor until 6pm (appartently they normally close at 5.50pm). I offered to come back another day but she said I might as well stay since I had wated but they would be closing soon. I explaind the best I could and she rushed me through talking over me and speaking quickly. I burst into tears which is out of character for me and she gave me a printout of panic attacks and told me to have a blood test for anaemia. I came out dissolusioned and vowed to get a second oppinion. I realise that I have been experiencing mild panic but only lightheadedness and more rapid heartbeat occasionally and sometimes a churning tummy but not to the point whjere I feel I cant brerathe or cheast pains etc. I CAN go in a shop but it is uncomfortable for me and an ordeal rather than a pleasure.
I made an appointment for an eye test which I have on Saturday to see if flourescent lighting is the problem. I made an appointmant with another doctor which I had yesterday and a blood test and I felt worse...
I burst into tears again and she started talking about mental health and panic attacks (I feel any panic I have is a knock on effect of something else). I mentioned Meniers and she did a test and said I didnt have that. I mentioned epilepsy becouse of the lights and she said it couldnt be that as ive never had a seisure. She tried to prescribe me ANTI DEPRESANTS!!! Although she said im not depressed they would help me cope with the panic. She said to have a blood test for Thiroid problems but AFTER offering me the pills which I think is obsurd surely they are a last resort! If I had lost someone and was suicidal it would be an option but they are a temporary crutch until you can deal with the situation but you still need to deal with it. I am ready to deal with it NOW there is no need to wait!!!
I went to the blood test with a lovely nurse who talked to me for ages and helped me more than the doctors. She said I am doing the right thing persuing different causes, eyes tests etc and she said I may benefit from councelling. She thinks my subconcious is holding tight onto something that is causing these symptoms. She said perhaps as a child I was lost in a supermarket. But I dont think the
Basically I have been getting very light headed in certain situations and for years I just asumed it was nothing. The worst times seem to be in supermarkets and after being sick in Marks and Spencers as a child a neighbour mentioned it could be a bad reaction to flourescent lighting but I never got it checked out. I have always felt uncomfortable under this lighting and feel like im going to faint and need to sit down, sometimes like im in virtual reality and not quite real but never like room is spinning and I have never lost conciousness. I didnt tell anyone for years but have now read about people in similar situations and realise its not just me.
Now I am 24 and my boyfriend and I are wanting to move to Canada in the next few years so this is why everything has come to the surface now and I feel it finally has to be addressed.
It is at the point now where I can go into shops if I have to but I dont enjoy it so I have started buying grocerys online. I am so concious of it now I am wound up before I even go in a shop.
I went to an aerobics class a couple of weeks ago where it was just a small cozy class in my village. The room had flourescent lights and I felt like I could pass out at any minute through the whole hour I was there. I couldnt seem to keep up with any of the basic dance routines and I was positively clumsy with zero coordination. I was a dancer for 12 years up until the age of 15 so there is no way I should have gotten so clumsy, my friend kept up and she has 2 left feet!
After the class I made a doctors appointment, something I aviod doing as I hate doctors I am hugely squeemish and dont believe much in medicine. My appointment was for 5.40pm (after work) and I didnt get in to see the doctor until 6pm (appartently they normally close at 5.50pm). I offered to come back another day but she said I might as well stay since I had wated but they would be closing soon. I explaind the best I could and she rushed me through talking over me and speaking quickly. I burst into tears which is out of character for me and she gave me a printout of panic attacks and told me to have a blood test for anaemia. I came out dissolusioned and vowed to get a second oppinion. I realise that I have been experiencing mild panic but only lightheadedness and more rapid heartbeat occasionally and sometimes a churning tummy but not to the point whjere I feel I cant brerathe or cheast pains etc. I CAN go in a shop but it is uncomfortable for me and an ordeal rather than a pleasure.
I made an appointment for an eye test which I have on Saturday to see if flourescent lighting is the problem. I made an appointmant with another doctor which I had yesterday and a blood test and I felt worse...
I burst into tears again and she started talking about mental health and panic attacks (I feel any panic I have is a knock on effect of something else). I mentioned Meniers and she did a test and said I didnt have that. I mentioned epilepsy becouse of the lights and she said it couldnt be that as ive never had a seisure. She tried to prescribe me ANTI DEPRESANTS!!! Although she said im not depressed they would help me cope with the panic. She said to have a blood test for Thiroid problems but AFTER offering me the pills which I think is obsurd surely they are a last resort! If I had lost someone and was suicidal it would be an option but they are a temporary crutch until you can deal with the situation but you still need to deal with it. I am ready to deal with it NOW there is no need to wait!!!
I went to the blood test with a lovely nurse who talked to me for ages and helped me more than the doctors. She said I am doing the right thing persuing different causes, eyes tests etc and she said I may benefit from councelling. She thinks my subconcious is holding tight onto something that is causing these symptoms. She said perhaps as a child I was lost in a supermarket. But I dont think the