emanticoff73
11-10-17, 22:37
am still having all this body pain. It's in my joints, my feet , my calves, my thighs, my butt, my arms, hands, fingers a d sometimes my neck. I find it hard to walk in the morning due to a bad heel and and sore feet. I get tiny ant like pinches in my arms all over and pain, shoulder pain too. My joints in my fingers hurt like crazy, my shoulders are so tight they touch my ears. It's an all over pain like I have lupus or something. Today I almost hyperventilate thinking I have stiff man's disease, polymyetosis or mixed connective disease, all rare but that doesny mayyer when you have HA!!! Okay my question is pain better than numness and weakness ? Does it mean at least your muscles still work. Or does it mean I will soon be like the Tim man from oz and be frozen soon from spazzed out stiff muscles. I'm so sore like I play sports and I don't. I noticed that when I walk my ankles turn in . Like my ankles are weak. Does that mean my joints are deteriorating? My hips feel wobbly. Today I was organizing stufff in my cubbard. I was lifting my arm to put stuff away. And I noticed my arm was fatigued . Like it was sore and tired and didn't want to go further so i took a break. That's new for me. My muscles seem fatigued. I do carry around my baby a lot and she's a little butter ball. She's heavy. I can't help thinking I have some rare muscular disorder that is going to take me out in a few months. Is it normal to have sore muscles in arms, legs. And feet. Also sore joints especially in hands. Can you have different issues going on in different parts of your body for different reasons or is this a disease? Or can it be anxiety. But how can anxiety make my heel hurt. It's like I got 44 and bam my body is destroyed. It feels great to put ice on my fingers and hands. I'm always petrified I'm dying. I think about it 24/7. I keep begging god to not take me till my son at least hits 21. He's 9 now. Then he can help take care of his sister and help my husband. I also feel he will be old enough to not be so destroyed from my death. Oh by the way I learned about these muscle diseases from that BFS website forum. Really wish I wouldn't of went there. Can somebody bring me back down before I hyperventilate. Oh by the way. A physicians assistant performed my nuerological exam and then the neurologist came in to speak with me. Can I still trust the benign diagnosis. Rheumatologist is next, now that's a scary though, oh all those auto immune diseases. It never ends!