Probs92
15-10-17, 13:22
Hi all,
Last November I ended up falling down the anxiety rabbit hole. It was almost completely caused by work related stress induced anxiety. At the time my boss was a sociopathic psycho and I was dealing with the stress of coming out to my parents and close friends about my nontraditional relationship (I am a gay man). All of this compiled to create a physical manifestation of anxiety: I started developing what I thought was ALS. That's when I truly fell down that hellish rabbithole.
A month or so later, I was on the mend, almost completely better, but I read an article about transgender rights, and all the sudden started having a panic attack that I was going to turn into a trans person (and from a place of complete honesty, I never had that even cross my mind previously). Intrusive fears about trans people began plaguing my thoughts. Talking to other people in the anxiety community, I realized I wasn't alone with this relatively strange type of anxious thinking.
Almost a year deep, and my health anxiety goes away most of the time, but I do have flare ups so to speak about my health. I have trans fears a bit still, but not like I used to, it is mostly like "hey! You aren't worried about anything right now? Don't forget about trans fear!" Or sometimes, "did your head just hurt? Maybe it's something serious."
I guess my question is, will I ever get better? I have a therapist, I take paroxetine which has helped, I meditate almost every day. It has all taken my anxiety down, but I am noticing an up tick lately. I have a new job, and I'm remembering all these old fears. I am just concerned I'll never be back to normal again.
Fondly,
Someone who used to be bulletproof
Last November I ended up falling down the anxiety rabbit hole. It was almost completely caused by work related stress induced anxiety. At the time my boss was a sociopathic psycho and I was dealing with the stress of coming out to my parents and close friends about my nontraditional relationship (I am a gay man). All of this compiled to create a physical manifestation of anxiety: I started developing what I thought was ALS. That's when I truly fell down that hellish rabbithole.
A month or so later, I was on the mend, almost completely better, but I read an article about transgender rights, and all the sudden started having a panic attack that I was going to turn into a trans person (and from a place of complete honesty, I never had that even cross my mind previously). Intrusive fears about trans people began plaguing my thoughts. Talking to other people in the anxiety community, I realized I wasn't alone with this relatively strange type of anxious thinking.
Almost a year deep, and my health anxiety goes away most of the time, but I do have flare ups so to speak about my health. I have trans fears a bit still, but not like I used to, it is mostly like "hey! You aren't worried about anything right now? Don't forget about trans fear!" Or sometimes, "did your head just hurt? Maybe it's something serious."
I guess my question is, will I ever get better? I have a therapist, I take paroxetine which has helped, I meditate almost every day. It has all taken my anxiety down, but I am noticing an up tick lately. I have a new job, and I'm remembering all these old fears. I am just concerned I'll never be back to normal again.
Fondly,
Someone who used to be bulletproof