TumblingSoul
18-10-17, 17:20
What an emotional mess these two months have been. I'm a 26-year-old guy who was diagnosed with an inner ear problem which has affected my balance a bit. Nothing that actually affected my daily life that much and now I'm taking meds which control that sense of imbalance quite well.
But I got extremely anxious thinking that I had Meniere's, which is a quite debilitating inner ear syndrome. All the tests disproved it. Not satisfied, and feeling my hands going numb and tingling, I thought MS. Went to a neuro, did MRI of the spine and head - nothing, all clear.
Well, of crouse, my anxious mind did not stop there. Instead of being happy, I moved on to ALS, because I have been twitching this whole time. I know that means nothing without other major neurologic symptoms, I've read tons of stuff, medical studies, check the BFS forum through and through and, still, I cannot have any peace of mind.
I'm always checking my body, always doing strength tests. This is ****ed up. This last weekend I took a 4-day vacation abroad to celebrate my girlfriend's birthday and I spent 99% of the time thinking about ALS and that it would be my last trip with my girlfriend. I checked my phone hundreds of times looking for reassurance every time I had a twitch in my calves, hands, head, face.
Don't know how I can take myself out of this. I'm losing it. Every single rational thing says it is not ALS and, still, it haunts me 24/7. I used to control my emotions rather well, but now I can't do it anymore. Dr. Google tricked me big time. :(
But I got extremely anxious thinking that I had Meniere's, which is a quite debilitating inner ear syndrome. All the tests disproved it. Not satisfied, and feeling my hands going numb and tingling, I thought MS. Went to a neuro, did MRI of the spine and head - nothing, all clear.
Well, of crouse, my anxious mind did not stop there. Instead of being happy, I moved on to ALS, because I have been twitching this whole time. I know that means nothing without other major neurologic symptoms, I've read tons of stuff, medical studies, check the BFS forum through and through and, still, I cannot have any peace of mind.
I'm always checking my body, always doing strength tests. This is ****ed up. This last weekend I took a 4-day vacation abroad to celebrate my girlfriend's birthday and I spent 99% of the time thinking about ALS and that it would be my last trip with my girlfriend. I checked my phone hundreds of times looking for reassurance every time I had a twitch in my calves, hands, head, face.
Don't know how I can take myself out of this. I'm losing it. Every single rational thing says it is not ALS and, still, it haunts me 24/7. I used to control my emotions rather well, but now I can't do it anymore. Dr. Google tricked me big time. :(