Back to the future ....

[Velvet]

Was a workaholic, had melt down, (3 years ago)various reasons, work related stress one of them, suffering trauma.

As a result, I isolate a lot, I go on trips and feel grateful I’m still able to do this .
I cut a lot of people out of my life. Were I used to be social, I now avoid social situations. Mostly fear of being judged. Symptoms of agoraphobia in my own area, but can go out when away from my area...that seems strange even to me :ohmy:

Been thinking about the future ....
It kinda looks bleak really ....I think I become more reclusive as time goes by.

I’m single and mostly happy with that, I fear a relationship could be detrimental to my health sometimes. Do I get lonely, at times yes, but it’s kind of a chosen loneliness...
Feeling like I will be alone now forever, does make me a little sad though,
Always been in a long term relationship up until around 4years ago....

I guess it’s a fear...
I wondered if anyone else felt the same...or anyone had overcome the fear..
I wouldn’t go on a dating site, even if I decided I would try dating ...I have tried them a long long time ago and found them soul destroying....I know some have had success with them but for me they just aren’t right....

Or maybe I just need a buddy someone to go occasional meal with and to the cinema etc... I’m not sure....thinking out loud this evening about the future...

All that said, I kinda feel safer alone....
Just a crazy mixed up person I guess......
It’s good to write it down it kinda helps...

[Bigboyuk]

Velvet I can relate to what you are saying the only difference is the loneliness for me isn't a chosen one and I don't like it one bit but in some ways it does feel safer but it's not ideal for me. Relationhips IMHO suck half the time and yes all iam bothered about is having a friend to share a pint or a meal trips out etc nothing complicated for me Just don't trust any one as I have been hurt many times (: ATB

[Velvet]

Velvet I can relate to what you are saying the only difference is the loneliness for me isn't a chosen one and I don't like it one bit but in some ways it does feel safer but it's not ideal for me. Relationhips IMHO suck half the time and yes all iam bothered about is having a friend to share a pint or a meal trips out etc nothing complicated for me Just don't trust any one as I have been hurt many times (: ATB

It’s good to know others feel similar, always worse to feel your the only one :scared15:

Yes understand what you say.
I guess similar for me really ..I’d love a pal to have a laugh with and some socialising nothing complicated...
Thing is I never really get into many situations where I meet people , as I mostly avoid them hahaha so I doubt it will happen anytime soon...no Ines gonna come knocking my door down.....no one knows we’re i am hahaha
You’ve gotta laugh haven’t ya :yahoo:

[Buster70]

Hi , I think anxiety and depression make the world a lonely place no matter what your situation, I have family and have been to family do's and felt all alone ( alone with everyone) , I've also cut myself off socially from my mates for fear of being found out for the mess I've ended up , they probably think I'm just being ignorant, I hide my mental state on a daily basis it's exhausting living a lie , dog walking is about as social as I get not very rock and roll .
Things can change in the blink of an eye so you never know .
Take care .:)

[Velvet]

Hi , I think anxiety and depression make the world a lonely place no matter what your situation, I have family and have been to family do's and felt all alone ( alone with everyone) , I've also cut myself off socially from my mates for fear of being found out for the mess I've ended up , they probably think I'm just being ignorant, I hide my mental state on a daily basis it's exhausting living a lie , dog walking is about as social as I get not very rock and roll .
Things can change in the blink of an eye so you never know .
Take care .:)

Yeh I’m same as you Buster, I cut friends out when I had a melt down a couple of years ago, fears of being judged I guess...I feel the stigma a lot.
I hide it too...
You can feel lonely in a crowded room ...I never used to but I do now
And yes things can change very quickly I really believe that too
Thanks for the input :)