CantonaKing
07-11-17, 11:54
Hi,
A few months ago, I was disagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder and OCD.
I am 35, but since a young age I have had certain rituals, plus I am a big worrier, so those diagnoses make sense.
In the summer, I had a bit of a breakdown – I had a dreadful thought about attacking my wife, which included horrible images.
I have never physically harmed anyone in my life and love her more than anything.
I then had a thought, what if I'm gay, which she found out about thanks to my non-stop researching on my laptop.
I have seen a psychologist and have gradually got better and my wife and I are working through things.
We are due to go on honeymoon in two weeks, as well.
However, on Saturday night, my sister gave birth to a boy, he is also my parents' first grandchild.
My sister's husband send me pics of the baby and he is so cute..but, suddenly, while looking at one of them, I had the most disgusting, sexual thought and image.
It lasted no more than two seconds, but I have been in turmoil every since.
I love children and have never, ever had such a repulsive thought before. Now, I can't get the revolting image out of my head and am worried I will tell my wife about it which, I think, will be the final straw.
My psychologist said these thoughts mean nothing and it is my reaction to them which is the problem.
Please can someone advise?
Thank you.
A few months ago, I was disagnosed with General Anxiety Disorder and OCD.
I am 35, but since a young age I have had certain rituals, plus I am a big worrier, so those diagnoses make sense.
In the summer, I had a bit of a breakdown – I had a dreadful thought about attacking my wife, which included horrible images.
I have never physically harmed anyone in my life and love her more than anything.
I then had a thought, what if I'm gay, which she found out about thanks to my non-stop researching on my laptop.
I have seen a psychologist and have gradually got better and my wife and I are working through things.
We are due to go on honeymoon in two weeks, as well.
However, on Saturday night, my sister gave birth to a boy, he is also my parents' first grandchild.
My sister's husband send me pics of the baby and he is so cute..but, suddenly, while looking at one of them, I had the most disgusting, sexual thought and image.
It lasted no more than two seconds, but I have been in turmoil every since.
I love children and have never, ever had such a repulsive thought before. Now, I can't get the revolting image out of my head and am worried I will tell my wife about it which, I think, will be the final straw.
My psychologist said these thoughts mean nothing and it is my reaction to them which is the problem.
Please can someone advise?
Thank you.