snowflake293
09-11-17, 15:38
Hi guys
Having a really tough few days. Picked up a bit earlier in the week and wasn't worrying as much, but the thoughts are back the last few days and aren't leaving me alone :(
Been having pain in my shoulders and ribs and slight fluttering pain around my liver/gall bladder area. Saw a GP last week who examined my tummy and said there is no inflammation round those areas and everything feels ok, but what if something is wrong and he can't feel it?!
When I rationalise it, I know the rib pain is most likely related to my back and shoulder pain. My shoulders are so tight and knotted I have to squish myself into an electric massage pillow thingy so hard it bruises me to get the knots out, and it still doesn't work.
Maybe my anxious shallow breathing is causing these pains?
I just feel completely wrecked by it all today. I keep thinking something terrible is going to happen, like someone will be in an accident or become really ill. I hate my husband being away at work and I don't feel good enough for him. I have put weight on lately and feel horrible about myself. He is a good looking man and I worry about him leaving me (he has never given me any reason to think this) this is all my stupid anxiety, ruining my life.
Anyway I just needed to get all that out somewhere. I feel totally rubbish today, I feel like a burden to everyone and I feel like I have massively failed.
I just want these thoughts to stop!!!
Having a really tough few days. Picked up a bit earlier in the week and wasn't worrying as much, but the thoughts are back the last few days and aren't leaving me alone :(
Been having pain in my shoulders and ribs and slight fluttering pain around my liver/gall bladder area. Saw a GP last week who examined my tummy and said there is no inflammation round those areas and everything feels ok, but what if something is wrong and he can't feel it?!
When I rationalise it, I know the rib pain is most likely related to my back and shoulder pain. My shoulders are so tight and knotted I have to squish myself into an electric massage pillow thingy so hard it bruises me to get the knots out, and it still doesn't work.
Maybe my anxious shallow breathing is causing these pains?
I just feel completely wrecked by it all today. I keep thinking something terrible is going to happen, like someone will be in an accident or become really ill. I hate my husband being away at work and I don't feel good enough for him. I have put weight on lately and feel horrible about myself. He is a good looking man and I worry about him leaving me (he has never given me any reason to think this) this is all my stupid anxiety, ruining my life.
Anyway I just needed to get all that out somewhere. I feel totally rubbish today, I feel like a burden to everyone and I feel like I have massively failed.
I just want these thoughts to stop!!!