Dusty
20-06-07, 17:06
I'm sorry guys. I don't know where else to go.
I feel awful. I feel like my whole world is collapsing round me and I hate it.
Where do I start?
I'm anxious because I'm tired and not sleeping well. I'm not sleeping because I'm anxious. I feel really bad at moaning at you all. I didn't who else I could pour my heart out too.
I can't stop crying. I feel so alone. WOrst of all, the one person I thought cared for me almost unconditionally seems to be putting his job and career before me and the kids.
He's going to be in London on my little girls birthday. He can't make presentation evening. And he's told me he's double booked all the way up to when we go on holiday. At least he will be doing that.
And now I feel guilty because I know he does care, and he is only working all the hours God sends to supoort me and the children.
I'm also feeling bad because my ten year old son shouldn't have to see his mum like this. I told him just now how much I hate feeling like this and he told me he hated it too - me feeling like this that is.
I don't know what way to turn.
Part of me is screaming - one good nights sleep and you'll feel much better. It is true. But I'm scared. So Scared. What if I never sleep properly again. This is what I'm like when I'm tired and it's horrible. I know other people live with insomnia but do they feel like there's nothing to go on for when they're this tired??
I'm so sorry to be so depressing, but I'm at my wits end and I just wamted - I don't know what I wanted but I had to tell someone.
I feel awful. I feel like my whole world is collapsing round me and I hate it.
Where do I start?
I'm anxious because I'm tired and not sleeping well. I'm not sleeping because I'm anxious. I feel really bad at moaning at you all. I didn't who else I could pour my heart out too.
I can't stop crying. I feel so alone. WOrst of all, the one person I thought cared for me almost unconditionally seems to be putting his job and career before me and the kids.
He's going to be in London on my little girls birthday. He can't make presentation evening. And he's told me he's double booked all the way up to when we go on holiday. At least he will be doing that.
And now I feel guilty because I know he does care, and he is only working all the hours God sends to supoort me and the children.
I'm also feeling bad because my ten year old son shouldn't have to see his mum like this. I told him just now how much I hate feeling like this and he told me he hated it too - me feeling like this that is.
I don't know what way to turn.
Part of me is screaming - one good nights sleep and you'll feel much better. It is true. But I'm scared. So Scared. What if I never sleep properly again. This is what I'm like when I'm tired and it's horrible. I know other people live with insomnia but do they feel like there's nothing to go on for when they're this tired??
I'm so sorry to be so depressing, but I'm at my wits end and I just wamted - I don't know what I wanted but I had to tell someone.