Tiatyrah
25-11-17, 09:36
Hello, it's the first time I post a topic here but been reading quite some topics so far.
It all started 1 and a half year ago with a pea sized bump on the back of my neck under the hair line. I was convinced it was lymphoma, I have had it checked by 2 different doctors and a ent and they said it was fine and my own doctor said it was a muscle knot, but the first time I went to see him he said if the thing got bigger I had to return to him but the second time he said it was a muscle knot.
It's still there now and I have been touching it, squeezing it last year to a point it gotten very sore, big as a golf ball and bruised. I stopped touching it after that and it's still there now, pea sized, sometimes it's harder and sometimes it's quite soft.
I can say that I'm no longer worried about that one because it's not gotten any bigger at all and it's been a year since I first noticed it, it might have been there for years even and that I just noticed it last year. I did have a terrible itch on my head for weeks!! So I thought that was another symptom of lymphoma but that itch went away after a week or so and later returned twice and now I didn't have it anymore, I'm not sure yet where the itch came from, maybe a allergy? Maybe because I have been dying my hair for years now? But I didn't experience the itch before in my life. Still don't know that but it hasn't returned for months now.
Later on I thought I had cancer in my colon, I felt a lump there and well (sorry) my stool isn't always normal, had massive pain on the right side under my ribs to a point that I couldn't walk and had to stand still till the pain stopped. Been to 2 different doctors for this and they didn't feel anything wrong at all. My own doctor said I had ibs, first I didn't believe him of course and I'm not really stressed about it right now. Taking medication for the ibs and I haven't had the pain again.
Then I was worried about lymphoma in my neck again, the right side I had my worries first.. My right side of my neck is bigger and harder than my left side. Also I feel little balls, pea sized, things there that I learned were lymph nodes, weird.. I can feel nodes? Were they there for years or did they just popped up? And why is my right side bigger and harder than my left? I don't know.. I still worry about it and I'm scared there's a big ball sized node somewhere under the muscles or something that makes the right side that way.. Asked one doctor about it and he said that no one was symmetrical and basicly laughed at me. I also have massaged that part after that, used muscle balms and it only gave me a sore neck and muscles that started to hurt. I have been coughing in the night a few times too, a dry cough that woke me up and felt like I couldn't breathe!
When I have my normal mind it tells me that it could be the weather and allergies from the trees and grass etc, or maybe the mold in the house or dusty room that I didn't clean for weeks because I'm so busy in my head about lymphoma! That cough didn't return since summer, I remember I had the same cough last summer during my driving lessons.. Maybe it's just related to the weather at that point? Right now I'm terrified again, I feel something on the left side in my neck, I think it's a node again which is swollen but maybe it's a muscle too! I feel a soft bump there, when I move my finger over it I feel a soft bump, not hard and I can't grab it or something and when I push deeper I feel a tiny pea sized ball there that seems to be stuck on a vein or whatever it is there.
I have many pea sized balls in my neck and above my collarbone too. Been to my doctor 7 november again asking if he could check my nodes in my neck and collarbone, he did and he said I had nothing to worry about since they were all small/very small. When I move my head to the left side where I feel this bump, it's gone, can't feel it anymore, yeah the pea sized thing I can feel then too but I have to push deep to feel it but the bump is gone.
Am I going crazy? Am I really fine? Or are doctors just so blind and think I'm the crazy person and let me go home.. Or are they sure its all too late and that I'm near my end? I also have a little weight loss but I started working out on a threadmill and a cross trainer since last month, I bike for an hour and I walk/run for an half hour after it.
Can someone please give their opinion? It's been more than a year now of constant fear of lymphoma and doctors keep telling me im fine! And can someone tell how a lymphoma node is suppose to feel? Is it always there even when you move your head in certain directions so nothing can be felt?
Ugh.. Sorry for the long post and I hope someone can give her/his opinion about this.
It all started 1 and a half year ago with a pea sized bump on the back of my neck under the hair line. I was convinced it was lymphoma, I have had it checked by 2 different doctors and a ent and they said it was fine and my own doctor said it was a muscle knot, but the first time I went to see him he said if the thing got bigger I had to return to him but the second time he said it was a muscle knot.
It's still there now and I have been touching it, squeezing it last year to a point it gotten very sore, big as a golf ball and bruised. I stopped touching it after that and it's still there now, pea sized, sometimes it's harder and sometimes it's quite soft.
I can say that I'm no longer worried about that one because it's not gotten any bigger at all and it's been a year since I first noticed it, it might have been there for years even and that I just noticed it last year. I did have a terrible itch on my head for weeks!! So I thought that was another symptom of lymphoma but that itch went away after a week or so and later returned twice and now I didn't have it anymore, I'm not sure yet where the itch came from, maybe a allergy? Maybe because I have been dying my hair for years now? But I didn't experience the itch before in my life. Still don't know that but it hasn't returned for months now.
Later on I thought I had cancer in my colon, I felt a lump there and well (sorry) my stool isn't always normal, had massive pain on the right side under my ribs to a point that I couldn't walk and had to stand still till the pain stopped. Been to 2 different doctors for this and they didn't feel anything wrong at all. My own doctor said I had ibs, first I didn't believe him of course and I'm not really stressed about it right now. Taking medication for the ibs and I haven't had the pain again.
Then I was worried about lymphoma in my neck again, the right side I had my worries first.. My right side of my neck is bigger and harder than my left side. Also I feel little balls, pea sized, things there that I learned were lymph nodes, weird.. I can feel nodes? Were they there for years or did they just popped up? And why is my right side bigger and harder than my left? I don't know.. I still worry about it and I'm scared there's a big ball sized node somewhere under the muscles or something that makes the right side that way.. Asked one doctor about it and he said that no one was symmetrical and basicly laughed at me. I also have massaged that part after that, used muscle balms and it only gave me a sore neck and muscles that started to hurt. I have been coughing in the night a few times too, a dry cough that woke me up and felt like I couldn't breathe!
When I have my normal mind it tells me that it could be the weather and allergies from the trees and grass etc, or maybe the mold in the house or dusty room that I didn't clean for weeks because I'm so busy in my head about lymphoma! That cough didn't return since summer, I remember I had the same cough last summer during my driving lessons.. Maybe it's just related to the weather at that point? Right now I'm terrified again, I feel something on the left side in my neck, I think it's a node again which is swollen but maybe it's a muscle too! I feel a soft bump there, when I move my finger over it I feel a soft bump, not hard and I can't grab it or something and when I push deeper I feel a tiny pea sized ball there that seems to be stuck on a vein or whatever it is there.
I have many pea sized balls in my neck and above my collarbone too. Been to my doctor 7 november again asking if he could check my nodes in my neck and collarbone, he did and he said I had nothing to worry about since they were all small/very small. When I move my head to the left side where I feel this bump, it's gone, can't feel it anymore, yeah the pea sized thing I can feel then too but I have to push deep to feel it but the bump is gone.
Am I going crazy? Am I really fine? Or are doctors just so blind and think I'm the crazy person and let me go home.. Or are they sure its all too late and that I'm near my end? I also have a little weight loss but I started working out on a threadmill and a cross trainer since last month, I bike for an hour and I walk/run for an half hour after it.
Can someone please give their opinion? It's been more than a year now of constant fear of lymphoma and doctors keep telling me im fine! And can someone tell how a lymphoma node is suppose to feel? Is it always there even when you move your head in certain directions so nothing can be felt?
Ugh.. Sorry for the long post and I hope someone can give her/his opinion about this.