fehercsongor
26-11-17, 14:44
I’m 24/M, and I’ve been a health anxiety sufferer for my whole life.
I felt more or less alright for more than two years, but it started over about a month ago.
It started with a small skin lesion next to my ear, which I thought to be nonmelanoma skin cancer (it’s a scar that doesn’t heal). I went to the dermatologist, and felt extremely anxious about it. I was told that it’s just a scar and not to worry about it. However, I developed other, much more serious symptoms: A small pain in my upper right back that I only feel when I breath in very deeply. For a few days, I thought it was okay and it it would go away on its own. But it didn’t, and it started freaking me out. I knew this could be caused by an enlarged liver, so I tried to check my abdomen for an enlarged liver. It felt okay at first, but I kept pressing around that area, and I found a huge lump that’s always there in the upper right corner, just where the liver is. It’s always there, and I’m 100% convinced it’s my liver. I also developed some vague pains in that area at my ribs, which is extremely worrying.
There is a very rare kind of liver cancer called fibrolamellar, which mostly targets people of my age. It has no specific symptoms, only vague pains and an enlarged liver. I just know this time it’s what I have. My life has been ruined, and I’m unable to function.
I decided to go to the doctor, to get it diagnosed. I just know I will be admitted to the hospital and die within a few months. I try to spend time with my family, all I can think of is dying soon. I’m just crying thinking about it.
I feel so hopeless, and I just wanted to write this down.
I felt more or less alright for more than two years, but it started over about a month ago.
It started with a small skin lesion next to my ear, which I thought to be nonmelanoma skin cancer (it’s a scar that doesn’t heal). I went to the dermatologist, and felt extremely anxious about it. I was told that it’s just a scar and not to worry about it. However, I developed other, much more serious symptoms: A small pain in my upper right back that I only feel when I breath in very deeply. For a few days, I thought it was okay and it it would go away on its own. But it didn’t, and it started freaking me out. I knew this could be caused by an enlarged liver, so I tried to check my abdomen for an enlarged liver. It felt okay at first, but I kept pressing around that area, and I found a huge lump that’s always there in the upper right corner, just where the liver is. It’s always there, and I’m 100% convinced it’s my liver. I also developed some vague pains in that area at my ribs, which is extremely worrying.
There is a very rare kind of liver cancer called fibrolamellar, which mostly targets people of my age. It has no specific symptoms, only vague pains and an enlarged liver. I just know this time it’s what I have. My life has been ruined, and I’m unable to function.
I decided to go to the doctor, to get it diagnosed. I just know I will be admitted to the hospital and die within a few months. I try to spend time with my family, all I can think of is dying soon. I’m just crying thinking about it.
I feel so hopeless, and I just wanted to write this down.