SG
30-11-17, 16:09
I suffer from health anxiety and get a bad wave of it that lasts for a few months at least once a year. Right now I'm worried about pain I've been getting under my shoulder blade and round my rib area. It started as a slight tightness when breathing/sneezing etc and over months has got worse to the point I'm in agony and feel like I've cracked a rib. Rationally I know it's probably just been weak muscles from bad posture/repetitive strain (I work at a desk) which has maybe caused a problem with my ribs but I can't stop my mind racing, worrying about all sorts. I went from being scared I had lung cancer and now it's moved on to some terrible condition that will end in me needing surgery or in a wheelchair or something. It has gone on for so long I feel like I'll never get better. I have an appointment to see about it next week but I'm scared to even go incase they tell me something terrible. I'm just at my wits end and hate feeling this way. Usually visiting here and talking about it helps me so I'm giving it a try again, to remind myself there are others going through it.
I just feel so frustrated too because I was doing so well for ages but my sister died suddenly a few months ago and I know this has set me back and now i'm back to worrying constantly and expecting doom and gloom round every corner. I know losing someone doesn't make it any more likely that something else terrible will happen but my irrational thoughts keep shouting louder than the rational voice.
I just feel so frustrated too because I was doing so well for ages but my sister died suddenly a few months ago and I know this has set me back and now i'm back to worrying constantly and expecting doom and gloom round every corner. I know losing someone doesn't make it any more likely that something else terrible will happen but my irrational thoughts keep shouting louder than the rational voice.