tjb113
05-12-17, 20:16
So I have one node on the side of my neck that I am concerned about. I first noticed it probably 4 years ago and I can only feel it when I turn my head to the side and that neck muscle is tight. It's about the size of a pea or jellybean (feels somewhat oblong) and seems fairly solid and I can't really tell if it has grown since I first noticed it. I can not feel a similar node on the left side when I try either, or if I do it seems either smaller or deeper.
I went to see a doctor about it then and they did blood work and felt it and said it was probably just reactive and would go down eventually. I will forget it's there for a time, usually months, but then I'll eventually notice it again and notice it's still there and my panic starts all over until I see the doctor again and they again send me home without really doing anything. I did it again about 6 months ago and they did an ultrasound and said it looked normal then too.
I think the problem is that I know blood tests and ultrasounds are not conclusive and I just keep worrying about it, and each time the worry and fears becomes more and more severe. I've looked at boards like these and such in the past and have found plenty of others with similar fears and palpable nodes but I can't help but still fear the worst. I have, of course, heard of "shotty" lymph nodes and how sometimes a node becomes enflamed and just never goes down in size, but how can I know that's what is happening here? I just feel so helpless and scared because it seems like there's nothing anyone can or will do to help me and the whole "it's probably nothing" response from doctors just isn't doing anything to alleviate my fear.
I went to see a doctor about it then and they did blood work and felt it and said it was probably just reactive and would go down eventually. I will forget it's there for a time, usually months, but then I'll eventually notice it again and notice it's still there and my panic starts all over until I see the doctor again and they again send me home without really doing anything. I did it again about 6 months ago and they did an ultrasound and said it looked normal then too.
I think the problem is that I know blood tests and ultrasounds are not conclusive and I just keep worrying about it, and each time the worry and fears becomes more and more severe. I've looked at boards like these and such in the past and have found plenty of others with similar fears and palpable nodes but I can't help but still fear the worst. I have, of course, heard of "shotty" lymph nodes and how sometimes a node becomes enflamed and just never goes down in size, but how can I know that's what is happening here? I just feel so helpless and scared because it seems like there's nothing anyone can or will do to help me and the whole "it's probably nothing" response from doctors just isn't doing anything to alleviate my fear.