snowflake293
09-12-17, 18:37
Ok so as well as worrying about this stupid new mole on my arm (which is literally the size of a tiny flea!) I am now worrying I have a deadly infection.
I have a deep cut on my leg that I have had for a week. I went to the hospital to get it seen too and they put butterfly stitches on and told me to see a nurse in a few days to get it checked. Anyway I didn't see the nurse and took the stitches off myself and washed/dressed the wound.
Today the wound looks red round the edges and it still oozing pus. I am so frightened of getting a bad infection and I am scared to go to sleep tonight in case I suddenly get worse. I am terrified. You hear horror stories of people getting awful infections.
To make it worse, and this is the hardest thing for me to type on this forum... the cut is actually more than one cut and its self-inflicted. I know it is a stupid thing to do. I had a problem with hurting myself for years and it got better, but I recently had a breakdown and things have been bad since then. I am doing ok now and have no urges to harm myself in any way at all, but my health anxiety is through the roof.
I was up all night worrying over my new mole and also my leg. I feel so ugly and horrible. I don't know why I do these things to myself, the cutting or torturing myself with these thoughts that I am going to die or I have a deadly illness.
I am back on meds and having CBT next year so I am on the right track but I am just so tired of it.
Going to A&E with a self-inflicted injury was the worse experience of my life. I felt like such a bad person, wasting their precious resources. It was the hardest thing I had ever done, but one cut in particular was deep and I didn't want to chance it.
Anyway I just needed to get this out somewhere. I am sorry for posting this but I don't know where else to turn. I am just sat here worrying I am going to pass out and end up being rushed into hospital :(
I have started taking some antibiotics that I had left over from a skin infection earlier this year. They are Flucloxacillin 500mg and I only have 3.5 days worth. I am hoping that will be enough. I know it is stupid and the wrong thing to do but I am really scared of the infection getting worse, but at the same time cause its my own fault I dont deserve to see a dr and waste any more of their time.
So sorry for posting this. I really hope it doesnt upset anyone and if this is the wrong place to talk about this I am happy for it to be deleted.
I have a deep cut on my leg that I have had for a week. I went to the hospital to get it seen too and they put butterfly stitches on and told me to see a nurse in a few days to get it checked. Anyway I didn't see the nurse and took the stitches off myself and washed/dressed the wound.
Today the wound looks red round the edges and it still oozing pus. I am so frightened of getting a bad infection and I am scared to go to sleep tonight in case I suddenly get worse. I am terrified. You hear horror stories of people getting awful infections.
To make it worse, and this is the hardest thing for me to type on this forum... the cut is actually more than one cut and its self-inflicted. I know it is a stupid thing to do. I had a problem with hurting myself for years and it got better, but I recently had a breakdown and things have been bad since then. I am doing ok now and have no urges to harm myself in any way at all, but my health anxiety is through the roof.
I was up all night worrying over my new mole and also my leg. I feel so ugly and horrible. I don't know why I do these things to myself, the cutting or torturing myself with these thoughts that I am going to die or I have a deadly illness.
I am back on meds and having CBT next year so I am on the right track but I am just so tired of it.
Going to A&E with a self-inflicted injury was the worse experience of my life. I felt like such a bad person, wasting their precious resources. It was the hardest thing I had ever done, but one cut in particular was deep and I didn't want to chance it.
Anyway I just needed to get this out somewhere. I am sorry for posting this but I don't know where else to turn. I am just sat here worrying I am going to pass out and end up being rushed into hospital :(
I have started taking some antibiotics that I had left over from a skin infection earlier this year. They are Flucloxacillin 500mg and I only have 3.5 days worth. I am hoping that will be enough. I know it is stupid and the wrong thing to do but I am really scared of the infection getting worse, but at the same time cause its my own fault I dont deserve to see a dr and waste any more of their time.
So sorry for posting this. I really hope it doesnt upset anyone and if this is the wrong place to talk about this I am happy for it to be deleted.