Ubernutty
12-12-17, 13:08
Hi,
I've been reading this forum for the last couple of weeks, and decided to register and start posting.
I'm 32 from the UK.
I have suffered with anxiety and depression since I was at school, but probably only realised that, it was anxiety when I was about 27. I used to just think I didn't like to do things...go places...among other things.
I tend to find that a lot of my worries all centre around my fear of dying - I worry constantly about my health / other peoples health / being in busy places.
I also care far too much about what people think of my - so I tend to avoid socialising.
I've had CBT a couple of times before, but didn't really deal well with it - but I am now back on a waiting list.
I used to love this time of year..but over the last couple of years I find it difficult to build up to and get through.
I know my anxiety just gets higher at this time of year...but for me I need to find something to worry about - this ranges from fears of the weather being bad / finding some lump to fixate and obsess over / worrying about me or family picking up the norovirus - or some other dodgy bug.
I think part of this is that I like routine, and at Christmas we do things on certain days etc - so I worry about anything at all putting a stop on the routine.
Doing this makes this time of year awful for me, as I feel like I'm tense the whole time.
So I am hoping this forum might help, if I can talk to people who understand how I feel.
I've been reading this forum for the last couple of weeks, and decided to register and start posting.
I'm 32 from the UK.
I have suffered with anxiety and depression since I was at school, but probably only realised that, it was anxiety when I was about 27. I used to just think I didn't like to do things...go places...among other things.
I tend to find that a lot of my worries all centre around my fear of dying - I worry constantly about my health / other peoples health / being in busy places.
I also care far too much about what people think of my - so I tend to avoid socialising.
I've had CBT a couple of times before, but didn't really deal well with it - but I am now back on a waiting list.
I used to love this time of year..but over the last couple of years I find it difficult to build up to and get through.
I know my anxiety just gets higher at this time of year...but for me I need to find something to worry about - this ranges from fears of the weather being bad / finding some lump to fixate and obsess over / worrying about me or family picking up the norovirus - or some other dodgy bug.
I think part of this is that I like routine, and at Christmas we do things on certain days etc - so I worry about anything at all putting a stop on the routine.
Doing this makes this time of year awful for me, as I feel like I'm tense the whole time.
So I am hoping this forum might help, if I can talk to people who understand how I feel.