Emily101115
17-12-17, 12:03
Hi all back again worrying myself stupid! Around this time last year I started loosing weight after making small changes to my diet and also my daughter with complex needs was in hospital with cellulitis around her eye.
January this year I joined the gym and been attending a mixture of group classes. When I am shopping I tend to always buy things that are highlighted green and amber NEVER red ( it’s a bit of an obsession now) I also have been counting calories and staying at 1650 someone’s not even eating that especially with doing excersise (sometimes two group classes). My symptoms have been:
On and off dizziness
Daily stomach pains
Headaches
Mucus with stool
Blood and mucus with stool( I think as I have to use my phone light to check, also eat lots of vegetables and salads)
Urgency to go to the toilet but very little coming out, I always have little balls of poo
Sometimes pencil think stools( not often)
Feeling nauseous after eating
No change to my appitite, often never feeling full.
What is worrying my is the weight, this time last year I was 12st-7lb and not this morning if my bathroom scales are accurate I am 9st-8. I haven’t been to the gym in the last 2 months but still trying to maintain a health diet, have been having naughty bits here and there. Lunch time I tend to not go over 400 cals and My breakfast calories are low too. The weight is still coming off me and I really starting to worry now.
I’ve got health anxiety, I have had cbt before. This time last year I was convinced I had melanoma which turned out to totally fine! I can ok for weeks and than I find myself so fixated on something and than I end up having all the symptoms. I lost my Mum when I was 13 to breast cancer and this year I have lost my dad to a heroin overdose which was so sudden, we hadn’t been speaking for years and than we made up with each other end of March and he died on 26th May 2017, I had only spoken in the phone to him and not had chance to see him. All the years we didn’t speak was my choice I am not living with the fact that I left him lonely which led him to drink and take drugs.
I am terrified of leaving my three children aged 7, 6 and 2 my 6 year old has a very rare gentic disorder meaning she is only the second person in the world with it so there is not much research on it, u go through daily stress and worry with her and if course other family things.
I do feel I am depressed as I also get no support with my children. My partners parents don’t even bother to see them. So they only have me and my partner really.
If I had something wrong with me would the weight be gradual? A lady from my daughters school commented “ you have lost more weight” the other day! I am always between two School ( daughter being at soeacil needs School ) I don’t always see people like I used to. I went to the hairdressers and she said you have lost so much weight! Than my daughters nurse who comes out when she was last round she said your still loosing weight I see. So all of this has triggerd me into panic mode, I am googling, feeling for lumps everywhere. Wanting to stay in my room being on my own.
Can anybody please help me? I’m feeling I don’t want to be here anymore but also terrified of leaving my children.
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Anybody
January this year I joined the gym and been attending a mixture of group classes. When I am shopping I tend to always buy things that are highlighted green and amber NEVER red ( it’s a bit of an obsession now) I also have been counting calories and staying at 1650 someone’s not even eating that especially with doing excersise (sometimes two group classes). My symptoms have been:
On and off dizziness
Daily stomach pains
Headaches
Mucus with stool
Blood and mucus with stool( I think as I have to use my phone light to check, also eat lots of vegetables and salads)
Urgency to go to the toilet but very little coming out, I always have little balls of poo
Sometimes pencil think stools( not often)
Feeling nauseous after eating
No change to my appitite, often never feeling full.
What is worrying my is the weight, this time last year I was 12st-7lb and not this morning if my bathroom scales are accurate I am 9st-8. I haven’t been to the gym in the last 2 months but still trying to maintain a health diet, have been having naughty bits here and there. Lunch time I tend to not go over 400 cals and My breakfast calories are low too. The weight is still coming off me and I really starting to worry now.
I’ve got health anxiety, I have had cbt before. This time last year I was convinced I had melanoma which turned out to totally fine! I can ok for weeks and than I find myself so fixated on something and than I end up having all the symptoms. I lost my Mum when I was 13 to breast cancer and this year I have lost my dad to a heroin overdose which was so sudden, we hadn’t been speaking for years and than we made up with each other end of March and he died on 26th May 2017, I had only spoken in the phone to him and not had chance to see him. All the years we didn’t speak was my choice I am not living with the fact that I left him lonely which led him to drink and take drugs.
I am terrified of leaving my three children aged 7, 6 and 2 my 6 year old has a very rare gentic disorder meaning she is only the second person in the world with it so there is not much research on it, u go through daily stress and worry with her and if course other family things.
I do feel I am depressed as I also get no support with my children. My partners parents don’t even bother to see them. So they only have me and my partner really.
If I had something wrong with me would the weight be gradual? A lady from my daughters school commented “ you have lost more weight” the other day! I am always between two School ( daughter being at soeacil needs School ) I don’t always see people like I used to. I went to the hairdressers and she said you have lost so much weight! Than my daughters nurse who comes out when she was last round she said your still loosing weight I see. So all of this has triggerd me into panic mode, I am googling, feeling for lumps everywhere. Wanting to stay in my room being on my own.
Can anybody please help me? I’m feeling I don’t want to be here anymore but also terrified of leaving my children.
---------- Post added at 12:03 ---------- Previous post was at 10:10 ----------
Anybody