CG5246
22-12-17, 13:22
I had all the tests done for everything that I was worried about. Everything was ruled out. I am not dying of some terrible disease, all of this is truly anxiety. That is a HUGE relief. And as I was getting medical problems ruled out, I was also working on my anxiety, reading the DARE book and going to a psychologist that was helping me with CBT. I haven't had a full blown panic attack in over 3 weeks, and I am sleeping 6-7 hours a night instead of 4-5 or fewer hours. So all of that is progress.
The thing is, the last few days have been...weird. I have been getting really good at not assuming the worst with my physical sensations, and just chalking most everything up to anxiety. But I still feel exhausted, and I go hour to hour feeling like the anxiety spiral is going away and I am FREE (and not feeling any psychosomatic symptoms), and then back to, wait it's not gone, and it won't go away (and this is usually when I feel some other psychosomatic symptom: dizziness, tension).
I feel like I have been doing really well with chalking up my bodily sensations to anxiety. I have defused, allowed my anxious feelings, run toward them, and distracted myself, which has allowed me to avoid panic attacks for the past few weeks, and now I am just at a constant anxious feeling throughout the day, so I am lower on the anxiety "spectrum" I guess? Not sure if this makes sense.
So what gives??? Am I ever going to feel normal again?
The thing is, the last few days have been...weird. I have been getting really good at not assuming the worst with my physical sensations, and just chalking most everything up to anxiety. But I still feel exhausted, and I go hour to hour feeling like the anxiety spiral is going away and I am FREE (and not feeling any psychosomatic symptoms), and then back to, wait it's not gone, and it won't go away (and this is usually when I feel some other psychosomatic symptom: dizziness, tension).
I feel like I have been doing really well with chalking up my bodily sensations to anxiety. I have defused, allowed my anxious feelings, run toward them, and distracted myself, which has allowed me to avoid panic attacks for the past few weeks, and now I am just at a constant anxious feeling throughout the day, so I am lower on the anxiety "spectrum" I guess? Not sure if this makes sense.
So what gives??? Am I ever going to feel normal again?