refreshingsanity
25-12-17, 03:58
So maybe in the beginning of December (or very end of November) i came down with a common cold. this lasted for maybe 3-4 days at most. I didn't think much about it since i always get sick when weather changes. Although, on Thursday, i screamed a lot at school and later developed an itchy throat. I thought it was just from using my voice too much, but then the cough developed into a very painful, hack dry cough eventually turning into one with mucus. The next day, i had terrible bone pain along with frontal sinus pain (still hurts to even move my head sideways, the area above my eyebrows is so painful) my head also hurts when i cough. I still have all these symptoms and yesterday also got a sore throat and runny nose (have so much clear mucus) and my ears also quite hurt. I did not lose my appetite nor do i have a fever (i don't think i do? never had one so i wouldn't know how it feels like). my main problem is that I'm seriously so scared this is just another pinpoint to leukemia. I've been having this fear since october and although i am not tired nor do i have a loss in appetite, i did have two colds in one month (frequent infection/ sickness?), some temporary bone pain from time to time, along with sinus headache that hasn't gone away since i was sick. i also am so worried because i keep getting paper cuts (currently have three) and its been days and they still haven't fully healed. i had one that healed in a week and a red spot was left (goes away when pressure is applied). i remember a month ago or so shaving and accidentally cutting myself on my thigh, i bled so much for a few minutes and it was scary because I've never had a razor cut bleed that much, but it completely stopped bleeding after a bandaid) although i think a sheer red spot has been left. i don't have petiache, but i do have lots of ingrown hairs that i always pick at and scars have been left. i don't feel tired, only when I'm going to bed. another worry is bruising. though i have yet to find any, i always check myself for some, and its scary. i also have somewhat pale gums AT TIMES and that worries me due to anemia. although i had a blood test a while back having all clears,although I've heard of a story where a girl who had leukemia had an all clear blood test the month before she was diagnosed. the only health issues i have that i know of are pcos (taking birth control for a year now ever since diagnosed) and vitamin d deficiency. and it sucks because i always see those st jude commercials on tv of children with leukemia and take it as a sign that ill soon be diagnosed. also, my neck feels very tender and swollen (in the middle) yet i can't find or pinpoint any swollen lymph nodes anywhere on my body. I'm just scared that i got two colds in one month, the one i currently have being very nasty it even hurts to move my head in any direction (up, down, sides). I'm just terrified, and have a feeling of ultimate doom. sorry this is so long. appreciate any comments/words. Im also a 17 year old girl by the way. I got this sickly cold towards the end of my period.