mary
03-12-04, 14:28
Hi
I found this site last night and thought it was great, and although i went in the chat rooms and had a chat it's taken me until today to pluck up the courage to actually post anything! (Nerves bad at the moment!)
I'm 36years old and had my first panic attack about 7 years ago, then 2 in as many years. Now i seem to get them in town or shopping (supermarkets and department stores are my worst places). My husband started his own business nearly a year ago and i'm blaming him! The worry of it is tremendous (or so it seems!), the business is doing well and i also work, but everyday i feel anxious about something, normally something totally irrelevant, like i can't find something, or even what we're going to have for tea! I've been dreading this time of year for literally months knowing that somehow i'm going to have the face the prospect of xmas shopping in the supermarket. I've lost count of the amount of times i've come out with nothing because i couldn't face the checkout, or moving that little bit further into the store. I've started to avoid places and have even registered with on-line supermarkets thinking this would be a good solution, but really it isn't it's just driving me further away from my problem. I'm not on any medication and saw my doctor who prescribed tranquilizers which i didn't take. I thought i could tackle it alone but it's so hard. My husband or my friend have to come nearly everywhere with me and it's making me feel so inadequate and useless. I keep remembering how i used to be outgoing, shopaholic, drive anywhere, visit all the major cities, and all that, and now I can barely bring myself to venture anywhere anywhere alone. All i want for xmas is my life back. I'm sorry if i've put a downer on everyone's day, but no one else seems to understand, my parents think it's a case of "pull yourself together" and my husband only realised something was wrong when i threw a shopping basket at him and ran out of Asda! I'm sorry if this a bit long winded and if you have read it all many many thanks for listening! Kind Regards MaryXX
I found this site last night and thought it was great, and although i went in the chat rooms and had a chat it's taken me until today to pluck up the courage to actually post anything! (Nerves bad at the moment!)
I'm 36years old and had my first panic attack about 7 years ago, then 2 in as many years. Now i seem to get them in town or shopping (supermarkets and department stores are my worst places). My husband started his own business nearly a year ago and i'm blaming him! The worry of it is tremendous (or so it seems!), the business is doing well and i also work, but everyday i feel anxious about something, normally something totally irrelevant, like i can't find something, or even what we're going to have for tea! I've been dreading this time of year for literally months knowing that somehow i'm going to have the face the prospect of xmas shopping in the supermarket. I've lost count of the amount of times i've come out with nothing because i couldn't face the checkout, or moving that little bit further into the store. I've started to avoid places and have even registered with on-line supermarkets thinking this would be a good solution, but really it isn't it's just driving me further away from my problem. I'm not on any medication and saw my doctor who prescribed tranquilizers which i didn't take. I thought i could tackle it alone but it's so hard. My husband or my friend have to come nearly everywhere with me and it's making me feel so inadequate and useless. I keep remembering how i used to be outgoing, shopaholic, drive anywhere, visit all the major cities, and all that, and now I can barely bring myself to venture anywhere anywhere alone. All i want for xmas is my life back. I'm sorry if i've put a downer on everyone's day, but no one else seems to understand, my parents think it's a case of "pull yourself together" and my husband only realised something was wrong when i threw a shopping basket at him and ran out of Asda! I'm sorry if this a bit long winded and if you have read it all many many thanks for listening! Kind Regards MaryXX