Anyone else had a 'bad' Christmas?

[Panda22]

Hopefully most had a really nice Christmas but i wonder if anyone can relate to this?? I just want to be alone when i'm feeling like this.. having to drive around and carry conversations is so exhausting.. it's weird i love my family but when i feel this much anxiety and depression i don't even want to do anything, i just want to be alone

I dread doing anything, only thing that feels ok is laying in bed watching youtube or netflix. It's the only thing that distracts me from the anxiety feelings...kinda sad. My mind just feels too exhausted to enjoy or do anything

Have a holiday coming up and last time i had panic feelings at the airport. I'm dreading that will happen again. I'm not looking forward to the holiday AT ALL and would rather cancel it so i can make sure i'm safe and okay.. what can i do??:(

[tan235]

I can totally relate!
I spent 5 days in bed, literally watching movies - that's it.
I know how you feel, it's hard to want to be involved when you have anxiety but it's probably the best thing you can do ... this too shall pass.
Anxiety always does - regret doesn't.
So ... try find some peace with it and smile.

But yes .... I too, am the same.

[cattia]

I've struggled this year. I've been struggling quite badly since the summer with my anxiety. Just about managed to get back on my feet again with counselling and self help, then got this flu which has spiralled mw down again. Now obsessing over all kinds of symptoms, actually stressed about breast cancer and seizures in one day so I'm not in a good place just now. My therapist is off until mid January and my husband won't talk to me about how I'm feeling so I'm on my own. The flu has left me with no energy so even if I felt like getting out and socialising, I'd struggle. I know that somehow, I have to make changes in 2018 to make myself happier. I just can't have another year like this, it's too much.

[susie1]

HI
I relate to all of this. I am a teacher and look forward to holidays but they are the times when HA really kicks in and robs enjoyment. The only time I really get relief is to get into bed at the end of the day. We HAVe to make changes for 2018

[cattia]

Susie I'm a teacher too and I get resentful that HA robs my enjoyment of the holidays which I so look forward to. It also affects the time I spend with my own kids because I'm so distracted and constantly thinking I'm going to die soon or develop a chronic illness. I don't know a way out of this rut but I have to try and find one.

[crazygirl2]

Same. And it is heartbreaking because I so badly want to make the holidays joyful for my daughter. And yet here we are she is stuck with a mother that is always stressed and now most likely won't be around for her .....

[Kanji]

:dry: Me.

As you and a few others have said, it's been hard having to force myself to socialize when I have all these horrible, dark thoughts circling in my mind constantly. Between all the cheerful Christmas music, festive movies, decorations, and food, etc, I feel like the universe is just mocking me at this point.

"Look at all the joy you can't have! *evil laughter*"

With that said, I feel genuine sadness for others, and for myself, that we could not enjoy the holidays this year. Here's hoping 2018 is a better year, a year where we can look HA in the eye and slowly raise a middle finger. :yesyes: