Bastett
30-12-17, 19:12
Oh I spiralled back when I started two weeks ago. The itsy bitsy lymph node appeared on the back of my neck 2 weeks ago. It is very small but palpable. The day it appeared it had redness over it and a few zits. I read it means accute. I don't know what caused it. Three days later one more small node appeared just below it. They are both no longer than 0.6 cm LONG axis. I also have cough and runny nose. 2 internists said to leave them alone that they are very small and reactive to my cold. But this cough is already two weeks and yesterday i thought my nodes are getting smaller but today i think they are back where they were
While I KNOW that they are VERY VERY VERY UNLIKELY to be lymphoma or anything else malignant because they are so small, appeared when I have caught a virus and my blood work is fine and I do not have any additional symptoms.
But today the thought crossed my mind that these nodes are on the same side where 2 months ago I had a scare about something I could find with my tongue on my soft palate. I thought it was minor salivary gland tumor and went to the best specialist of my country in oral pathology/professor of oncology. He looked in my mouth and photographed it with velscope technology. Everything was very good and he actually laughed at me because what I had percieved as something sinister was an overused muscle. He felt my nodes on my neck and they were all fine. My lymphs appeared 2 weeks after my visit. I was relieved but now I think what if he misdiagnosed me and nodes reacted not to my virus but to that "bump" (which he said wasn't even a lump) i also have burning mouth at that side. He said glossodynia most likely from acid or anxiety (he saw i was anxious because I specifically asked him if it doesn't look like cancer... he has experience in oral oncology for more than 20 years and is a professor. Rationally i think that my palate is ok but health anxiety isn't rational and I think they are misdiagnosing me and I am going to die).
I am pregnant now so I can't even go to test out my lymph nodes now. Internist said that no one would even biopsy them because they are small. And that if I want that piece of mind I can go to ultrasound to hear that they are benign.
I don't know what I want from you. I am just posting it for my own sanity. If it is written out, i can see that I am nuts.
While I KNOW that they are VERY VERY VERY UNLIKELY to be lymphoma or anything else malignant because they are so small, appeared when I have caught a virus and my blood work is fine and I do not have any additional symptoms.
But today the thought crossed my mind that these nodes are on the same side where 2 months ago I had a scare about something I could find with my tongue on my soft palate. I thought it was minor salivary gland tumor and went to the best specialist of my country in oral pathology/professor of oncology. He looked in my mouth and photographed it with velscope technology. Everything was very good and he actually laughed at me because what I had percieved as something sinister was an overused muscle. He felt my nodes on my neck and they were all fine. My lymphs appeared 2 weeks after my visit. I was relieved but now I think what if he misdiagnosed me and nodes reacted not to my virus but to that "bump" (which he said wasn't even a lump) i also have burning mouth at that side. He said glossodynia most likely from acid or anxiety (he saw i was anxious because I specifically asked him if it doesn't look like cancer... he has experience in oral oncology for more than 20 years and is a professor. Rationally i think that my palate is ok but health anxiety isn't rational and I think they are misdiagnosing me and I am going to die).
I am pregnant now so I can't even go to test out my lymph nodes now. Internist said that no one would even biopsy them because they are small. And that if I want that piece of mind I can go to ultrasound to hear that they are benign.
I don't know what I want from you. I am just posting it for my own sanity. If it is written out, i can see that I am nuts.