Caseyg89
31-12-17, 21:18
Happy New years everyone.
2017 has been one of my absolute worst years (health anxiety for the first time) and the most amazing (gave birth to my baby boy). I am just feeling so defeated. I've tried all strategies. I travel an hour to a psychologist that specializes in OCD and health anxiety, I've worked with my family doctor and I have seen pretty well all specialists. I've had horrible stomach issues (all day, everyday) for the past 11 months and I cannot get the fear of stomach cancer out of my head. Naturally, I read about a stomach cancer that is much more difficult to diagnose and am convinced I have this type. I've had 2 endoscopes and a barium swallow. I just can't handle anytjing that is outside of the norm. After I have birth I was severely anemic, had elevated white blood cells and platelets. I was convinced that was due to cancer. I had more blood work ordered and all of those issues were rectified but my liver function was slightly elevated. Naturally, I was instantly convinced it's because cancer spread. I was ordered an ultrasound which I had done today. They looked at my whole abdomen and everything was normal. There have been no answers for my stomach issues so I feel so defeated and when I don't have an answer I go to the worst case. To be honest, when I have an answer I try to disprove it.
I've wanted to be a mom my whole life. I can't even explain how much I'm in love with my son. When I had to get the ultrasound I cried and cried because I'm worried about leaving my baby. I'm crying just thinking about it.
One thing I realized is that the more tests you get, the more "issues" that will be found. I read an article from a radiologist that said he never does an MRI or CT scan where something isn't found incidentally.
I've tried getting reassurance from tests, I've tried not going for any tests, I've tried counselling. I'm not completely comfortable with medication since I'm breast feeding.
I don't know what it will take for me to believe I don't have stomach cancer.
2017 has been one of my absolute worst years (health anxiety for the first time) and the most amazing (gave birth to my baby boy). I am just feeling so defeated. I've tried all strategies. I travel an hour to a psychologist that specializes in OCD and health anxiety, I've worked with my family doctor and I have seen pretty well all specialists. I've had horrible stomach issues (all day, everyday) for the past 11 months and I cannot get the fear of stomach cancer out of my head. Naturally, I read about a stomach cancer that is much more difficult to diagnose and am convinced I have this type. I've had 2 endoscopes and a barium swallow. I just can't handle anytjing that is outside of the norm. After I have birth I was severely anemic, had elevated white blood cells and platelets. I was convinced that was due to cancer. I had more blood work ordered and all of those issues were rectified but my liver function was slightly elevated. Naturally, I was instantly convinced it's because cancer spread. I was ordered an ultrasound which I had done today. They looked at my whole abdomen and everything was normal. There have been no answers for my stomach issues so I feel so defeated and when I don't have an answer I go to the worst case. To be honest, when I have an answer I try to disprove it.
I've wanted to be a mom my whole life. I can't even explain how much I'm in love with my son. When I had to get the ultrasound I cried and cried because I'm worried about leaving my baby. I'm crying just thinking about it.
One thing I realized is that the more tests you get, the more "issues" that will be found. I read an article from a radiologist that said he never does an MRI or CT scan where something isn't found incidentally.
I've tried getting reassurance from tests, I've tried not going for any tests, I've tried counselling. I'm not completely comfortable with medication since I'm breast feeding.
I don't know what it will take for me to believe I don't have stomach cancer.