irat
31-12-17, 23:06
Hello!
Long story short - I'm an anxious mess. Let me try and summarise this as best I can.
In Sep 2015, I had protected intercourse (for maximum 90 seconds), and also received unprotected oral. After about 7 weeks, I felt quite poorly with what seemed like a weird flu, and then after just under 9 weeks, the glands on my neck enlarged. A quick Google of my symptoms, and guess what came up - HIV. :weep:
This, together with the fact that the woman I'd slept with roughly 2 months prior was black African, send me mad. I went to the doctors, who said it was glandular fever, although the blood test I had did not come back positive for glandular fever. This didn't seem to bother the doctor, and within a few weeks I felt fine.
However, the last 2 years have seen me research HIV absolutely frenetically. I know that my symptoms showed up too late for it to be the seroconversion, I know that receiving unprotected oral sex as a man has never been shown to cause HIV, I know that as long as the condom didn't obviously split (which it didn't) then there's no risk for STIs. But this doesn't stop my mind wondering. And researching. And fretting.
I feel like it's worth mentioning that about 1 year previous, I did have unprotected sex with a white 18 year old girl, but I did not feel anything like the ARS in the aftermath of that exchange, and am aware that statistically the odds of her having HIV in the first place as a woman of that age are extremely remote, let alone the odds of her passing it to a man after one sexual encounter.
I know what everyone is going to say - "test!", but I am yet work up the courage to do this. I'm not the most sexually experienced guy, I've only had these 2 sexual encounters, and have always been quite an anxious sort.
I'm trying to convince myself that the sheer science of it all means there's more chance that I win the lottery every week for a month, but if I'm ever bored, I always end up getting lost in the HIV-research wormhole....
Help :'(
Long story short - I'm an anxious mess. Let me try and summarise this as best I can.
In Sep 2015, I had protected intercourse (for maximum 90 seconds), and also received unprotected oral. After about 7 weeks, I felt quite poorly with what seemed like a weird flu, and then after just under 9 weeks, the glands on my neck enlarged. A quick Google of my symptoms, and guess what came up - HIV. :weep:
This, together with the fact that the woman I'd slept with roughly 2 months prior was black African, send me mad. I went to the doctors, who said it was glandular fever, although the blood test I had did not come back positive for glandular fever. This didn't seem to bother the doctor, and within a few weeks I felt fine.
However, the last 2 years have seen me research HIV absolutely frenetically. I know that my symptoms showed up too late for it to be the seroconversion, I know that receiving unprotected oral sex as a man has never been shown to cause HIV, I know that as long as the condom didn't obviously split (which it didn't) then there's no risk for STIs. But this doesn't stop my mind wondering. And researching. And fretting.
I feel like it's worth mentioning that about 1 year previous, I did have unprotected sex with a white 18 year old girl, but I did not feel anything like the ARS in the aftermath of that exchange, and am aware that statistically the odds of her having HIV in the first place as a woman of that age are extremely remote, let alone the odds of her passing it to a man after one sexual encounter.
I know what everyone is going to say - "test!", but I am yet work up the courage to do this. I'm not the most sexually experienced guy, I've only had these 2 sexual encounters, and have always been quite an anxious sort.
I'm trying to convince myself that the sheer science of it all means there's more chance that I win the lottery every week for a month, but if I'm ever bored, I always end up getting lost in the HIV-research wormhole....
Help :'(