Moose.
27-06-07, 10:24
Hi all,
I'm Matt, 27, and have been suffering with general anxiety disorder for just over two years now. It started when I used to wake up every morning feeling like I was about to burst into tears (I did on a few occasions). So I went to see my doctor about it. She was very understanding and recommended I did a course of CBT. This went ok, and I did actually get quite a lot better after a few months, enough that I could get on with life again (although I still had an underlining feeling of anxiety, but it was manageable).
However, these past few months, things haven't really been going my way with my life and I've allowed the anxiety to slip back in. The worst thing (as I'm sure so many of you know) is that it feeds itself and I find myself over thinking and worrying about everything now. It's so easy to let my mind do this and it just makes me feel so awful.
At the moment it's the mornings I find the worst. It can take until lunch time before I start to feel more normal again. I also have a real fear of being alone. If I'm alone, my mind starts to think "what ifs" and pull me back down into that anxious feeling. I just can't stop thinking about the future and how bad things could be, even though I have no real reason to think like that! I just seem to find it so much easier to see the negative sides of everything rather than the positives.
I know I can feel better again, but that light seems such a long way away at the moment. I'm tempted to go back to my doctor again, but I'm not sure if doing the CBT again will help, as I'm sure she'll just tell me the same old stuff again.
Thanks for reading anyway. Oddly just writing this all down has calmed me a little.
I'm Matt, 27, and have been suffering with general anxiety disorder for just over two years now. It started when I used to wake up every morning feeling like I was about to burst into tears (I did on a few occasions). So I went to see my doctor about it. She was very understanding and recommended I did a course of CBT. This went ok, and I did actually get quite a lot better after a few months, enough that I could get on with life again (although I still had an underlining feeling of anxiety, but it was manageable).
However, these past few months, things haven't really been going my way with my life and I've allowed the anxiety to slip back in. The worst thing (as I'm sure so many of you know) is that it feeds itself and I find myself over thinking and worrying about everything now. It's so easy to let my mind do this and it just makes me feel so awful.
At the moment it's the mornings I find the worst. It can take until lunch time before I start to feel more normal again. I also have a real fear of being alone. If I'm alone, my mind starts to think "what ifs" and pull me back down into that anxious feeling. I just can't stop thinking about the future and how bad things could be, even though I have no real reason to think like that! I just seem to find it so much easier to see the negative sides of everything rather than the positives.
I know I can feel better again, but that light seems such a long way away at the moment. I'm tempted to go back to my doctor again, but I'm not sure if doing the CBT again will help, as I'm sure she'll just tell me the same old stuff again.
Thanks for reading anyway. Oddly just writing this all down has calmed me a little.