anxietysmymiddlename
06-01-18, 00:39
Hi guys, I am super depressed and scared SEVERELY that I have a cancerous lymph node it my neck...
It's right near my right jugular vein. It's a large size bulge and I have been endlessly prodding it and that's obviously making it worse I know...
But this is literally the most real health scare I have ever had. It feels almost like a reality and all I can literally think about it is when I die i am gonna lose everyone I love and frankly I can't accept it because I am only 18 years old and I don't want my life to end this way...
I fought and fought anxiety of moving forward in life and i succeeded I am just about to start a new job and start off my adulthood a Now I don't feel like I have this chance anymore. I am constantly thinking about it. I know it's there I can feel it and im freaking out knowing this a real life thing im facing.
I am trying so hard to get to the doctors but I need to wait for my insurance card to come in first. which should hopefully be coming anyday.
But this feeling I have. I literally can't enjoy anything anymore i feel like my life's going to end soon so strongly. I'm thinking about how death couldn't be to bad but it still destroys me.
Please. Please if anybody has anything they could tell me to help me calm down. Or any sorta of reassurance. I would greatly appreciate it. Anything helps.... Please..
It's right near my right jugular vein. It's a large size bulge and I have been endlessly prodding it and that's obviously making it worse I know...
But this is literally the most real health scare I have ever had. It feels almost like a reality and all I can literally think about it is when I die i am gonna lose everyone I love and frankly I can't accept it because I am only 18 years old and I don't want my life to end this way...
I fought and fought anxiety of moving forward in life and i succeeded I am just about to start a new job and start off my adulthood a Now I don't feel like I have this chance anymore. I am constantly thinking about it. I know it's there I can feel it and im freaking out knowing this a real life thing im facing.
I am trying so hard to get to the doctors but I need to wait for my insurance card to come in first. which should hopefully be coming anyday.
But this feeling I have. I literally can't enjoy anything anymore i feel like my life's going to end soon so strongly. I'm thinking about how death couldn't be to bad but it still destroys me.
Please. Please if anybody has anything they could tell me to help me calm down. Or any sorta of reassurance. I would greatly appreciate it. Anything helps.... Please..