iveyn
10-01-18, 13:24
Hello!
I am new here and my English is not perfect since I am not native, so I am sorry in advance if I make mistakes : )
I am very worried about something that started happening to me for 5 months now. Long story short, I started reading about schizophrenia after my boyfriend told me I've spoken in my sleep twice.. I read that it might be an early symptom and I started looking so close at every single thought I had.
I was very stressed and had a couple of panic attacks because of my fear of developing this mental illness.
1. Maybe I have always had a period of experiencing hypnagonia, but I never really paid attention, after I started concentrating on everything that happens in my mind it became such a big problem to me that I started experiencing them almost every night..
2.What really bothers me is that I have very random words or short phrases (max 3-4 words) popping into my mind. I can explain easier if I make you think of a word (for an example "cool shirt" ) in your mind with your inner voice, and then imagine that this word popped out of nowhere, I am not actively thinking about it, it just happens so fast.. I don't think I am hearing voices, but it's just my inner voice being more random sometimes.
- It usually happens when I read, am on the internet, and generally don't do anything.
- It scares me that it might be the first step of developing schizophrenia. It scared me because I wonder what if some strange word pops into my mind that has some religious meaning and I start wondering why did it pop into my mind? And start obsessing over it, what if I become delusional..
I talked to a psychologist, she said that I don't have schizophrenia, does someone else have experienced that kind of symptom? Is it normal? Am I just highly aware of everything in my mind?
I am so afraid, I want to cry.. My family is just so tired of me always speaking about this, I feel so guilty.
P.S : I am diagnosed with GAD, but I think I have OCD thoughts sometimes.
Thank you in advance.
I am new here and my English is not perfect since I am not native, so I am sorry in advance if I make mistakes : )
I am very worried about something that started happening to me for 5 months now. Long story short, I started reading about schizophrenia after my boyfriend told me I've spoken in my sleep twice.. I read that it might be an early symptom and I started looking so close at every single thought I had.
I was very stressed and had a couple of panic attacks because of my fear of developing this mental illness.
1. Maybe I have always had a period of experiencing hypnagonia, but I never really paid attention, after I started concentrating on everything that happens in my mind it became such a big problem to me that I started experiencing them almost every night..
2.What really bothers me is that I have very random words or short phrases (max 3-4 words) popping into my mind. I can explain easier if I make you think of a word (for an example "cool shirt" ) in your mind with your inner voice, and then imagine that this word popped out of nowhere, I am not actively thinking about it, it just happens so fast.. I don't think I am hearing voices, but it's just my inner voice being more random sometimes.
- It usually happens when I read, am on the internet, and generally don't do anything.
- It scares me that it might be the first step of developing schizophrenia. It scared me because I wonder what if some strange word pops into my mind that has some religious meaning and I start wondering why did it pop into my mind? And start obsessing over it, what if I become delusional..
I talked to a psychologist, she said that I don't have schizophrenia, does someone else have experienced that kind of symptom? Is it normal? Am I just highly aware of everything in my mind?
I am so afraid, I want to cry.. My family is just so tired of me always speaking about this, I feel so guilty.
P.S : I am diagnosed with GAD, but I think I have OCD thoughts sometimes.
Thank you in advance.