Mindprison
16-01-18, 16:33
Hey everyone
This week marks a year of constant Health Anxiety. Not something to celebrate but it is a milestone at least. My hope is that this year will bring an end to it.
Just looking for some support today. No reassurance, no diagnosis...just support. This rant will hopefully serve to remind me that anxiety's physical problems can sometimes be worse than the mental ones but doesn't make it any more or less than anxiety.
I've been struggling on and off for a long time now but this recent bump has set me back a fair bit. I should explain.
2 weeks ago I got hit with sudden dizziness and lightheadedness. Not unusual for high anxiety. I get bouts of it now and then but it usually clears after a week at most.
The past few days it got worse to the point I felt nauseous and felt like I was swaying a bit when standing. Even sitting wasn't helping much as I kept getting waves of lightheadedness.
Anyway my new rule is if a symptom is getting worse and isn't gone after 2 weeks, see the doctor. So I did that today.
Explained everything to him. He checked my ears, heart, lungs, blood pressure both sitting and standing. Asked questions about my stomach and so on whether I noticed blood or anything which I haven't.
Decides the best course of action is full blood count just to get a better idea as my blood pressure is high (though we both agreed the anxiety is likely pushing it up) and also gives me prochlorperozine which I am reluctant to take because I have a medication fear.
Couldn't get it done today because I have to fast so i'm going tomorrow after therapy.
My anxiety levels hit the roof after I left mainly because my mind started racing for answers about what it could be. I did my best to keep it down as I have the past few months.
Couldn't do it. After seeing one of my family members off on the train I was again alone with my thoughts, still dizzy and nauseous.
I got home and noticed my vision was warped, the wall looked like it was moving away from me. The dam broke and a panic attack started.
The wallpaper now looked like it was crawling across the wall so I went to bed, shut my eyes and waited for the panic attack to inevitably pass.
I sit here now still dizzy, lightheaded and with minor visual disturbances and ask myself this question.
What the hell did I do to deserve this?
I'm pushing my next psychiatry appointment forward and seeing my therapist tomorrow but at this point i'm just fed up with all of it. All I want is my old life back yet my mind refuses to accept that most of my problems are anxiety related.
Thanks for listening.
This week marks a year of constant Health Anxiety. Not something to celebrate but it is a milestone at least. My hope is that this year will bring an end to it.
Just looking for some support today. No reassurance, no diagnosis...just support. This rant will hopefully serve to remind me that anxiety's physical problems can sometimes be worse than the mental ones but doesn't make it any more or less than anxiety.
I've been struggling on and off for a long time now but this recent bump has set me back a fair bit. I should explain.
2 weeks ago I got hit with sudden dizziness and lightheadedness. Not unusual for high anxiety. I get bouts of it now and then but it usually clears after a week at most.
The past few days it got worse to the point I felt nauseous and felt like I was swaying a bit when standing. Even sitting wasn't helping much as I kept getting waves of lightheadedness.
Anyway my new rule is if a symptom is getting worse and isn't gone after 2 weeks, see the doctor. So I did that today.
Explained everything to him. He checked my ears, heart, lungs, blood pressure both sitting and standing. Asked questions about my stomach and so on whether I noticed blood or anything which I haven't.
Decides the best course of action is full blood count just to get a better idea as my blood pressure is high (though we both agreed the anxiety is likely pushing it up) and also gives me prochlorperozine which I am reluctant to take because I have a medication fear.
Couldn't get it done today because I have to fast so i'm going tomorrow after therapy.
My anxiety levels hit the roof after I left mainly because my mind started racing for answers about what it could be. I did my best to keep it down as I have the past few months.
Couldn't do it. After seeing one of my family members off on the train I was again alone with my thoughts, still dizzy and nauseous.
I got home and noticed my vision was warped, the wall looked like it was moving away from me. The dam broke and a panic attack started.
The wallpaper now looked like it was crawling across the wall so I went to bed, shut my eyes and waited for the panic attack to inevitably pass.
I sit here now still dizzy, lightheaded and with minor visual disturbances and ask myself this question.
What the hell did I do to deserve this?
I'm pushing my next psychiatry appointment forward and seeing my therapist tomorrow but at this point i'm just fed up with all of it. All I want is my old life back yet my mind refuses to accept that most of my problems are anxiety related.
Thanks for listening.