Bastett
21-01-18, 11:55
Being in my 1st trimester of pregnancy, I felt something in my right breast that seemed odd to me, a bit harder than other places in my breasts. Naturally I freaked out about breast cancer. 2 months ago I've had blood work on oncological markers and all were practically non-existant, zero. My gynecologist sent me to do them because of my family history. So the next morning I rushed to breast ultrasound (payed privately so that I got to have it right now). I went to a very experienced and knowledgeable specialist. She felt my breast and did an ultrasound and said that I had nothing to worry because what I felt was only part of my milk ducts that had become this way due to my pregnancy. She even ultrasounded the area twice, to specifically show me that it was ok. Because I had read in google that it is worse if they can't see the lump on ultrasound, but she saw what I was talking about and showed me that - and said it was convincingly not a lump to begin with.
I was reassured for some days but then the panic returned. I went to my own gynecologist, she is also an ultrasound specialist and has the ultrasound machine in her office as well. She felt my breast, took a look at ultrasound results and said that i had no reason not to trust the first doctor, that it is what is written in results and certainly not cancer.
To reassure me she said that we can look at the ultrasound again in her office and she did it, and showed it to me in the screen and explained me how it works, that it was just a harder milk duct, she said it can happen due to pregnancy (which I have), and STRESS (which I certainly do have in very large amounts). Told me not to worry, and stop being anxious since it could cause harm to my baby.
I trust her, I really do, and it all went well for some 4 days. But now I want an ultrasound again, because - what if they both missed something ? Highly unlikely, i know! My sister has felt my breast in that area and said i was being ridiculous because she has had the same thing happen when she was pregnant both times and nothing was wrong.
I am trying to be calm, I am not crying over this anymore and not telling my husband that he is going to have to raise our child alone (I did that when I first found the "lump")
I feel fine during the day while I am not touching it. But once I touch the area, I feel panick again, because I can honestly feel the harder milk duct than others, and I am in a desperate need to learn how to trust my doctors!
Prior to visiting my gynecologist I felt and promised my husband that I would trust her if she says I have nothing to worry about. Because she is very professional and knowledgeable, and really checks through everything thoroughly and finds things that others may have missed.
I think I need to re-learn the trust thing. I need to accept that I am fine now, and I can always go for another ultrasound in 4-5 months, if I want to. Certainly no need to go for another one every other week, right ? Since I've already had two in two weeks time since I got all panicky about it.
But how to learn to calm myself and wait , is a big question to me! :scared15::doh:
I was reassured for some days but then the panic returned. I went to my own gynecologist, she is also an ultrasound specialist and has the ultrasound machine in her office as well. She felt my breast, took a look at ultrasound results and said that i had no reason not to trust the first doctor, that it is what is written in results and certainly not cancer.
To reassure me she said that we can look at the ultrasound again in her office and she did it, and showed it to me in the screen and explained me how it works, that it was just a harder milk duct, she said it can happen due to pregnancy (which I have), and STRESS (which I certainly do have in very large amounts). Told me not to worry, and stop being anxious since it could cause harm to my baby.
I trust her, I really do, and it all went well for some 4 days. But now I want an ultrasound again, because - what if they both missed something ? Highly unlikely, i know! My sister has felt my breast in that area and said i was being ridiculous because she has had the same thing happen when she was pregnant both times and nothing was wrong.
I am trying to be calm, I am not crying over this anymore and not telling my husband that he is going to have to raise our child alone (I did that when I first found the "lump")
I feel fine during the day while I am not touching it. But once I touch the area, I feel panick again, because I can honestly feel the harder milk duct than others, and I am in a desperate need to learn how to trust my doctors!
Prior to visiting my gynecologist I felt and promised my husband that I would trust her if she says I have nothing to worry about. Because she is very professional and knowledgeable, and really checks through everything thoroughly and finds things that others may have missed.
I think I need to re-learn the trust thing. I need to accept that I am fine now, and I can always go for another ultrasound in 4-5 months, if I want to. Certainly no need to go for another one every other week, right ? Since I've already had two in two weeks time since I got all panicky about it.
But how to learn to calm myself and wait , is a big question to me! :scared15::doh: