braindead
31-01-18, 17:26
i have been in the shit hospital all the time i have been away, i had a mental crash 3 weeks after release i was put back in for my own safety, what a farce the same 5 mg of escitalopram and my trusty 6mg a day lorazepam. i am undergoing phyco therapy at home now, a right load of balls so far, i cannot change meds or the phyc won't work with me if i am in-between meds make it difficult, i have nothing to change to i have taken all the meds there is med bible. i cannot sleep at night at all my brain is trashed. the hospital i think i was in 10 something weeks with me and my ward mates had nothing to do. i was allowed out the building after a while to go to the superstore where i smuggled in vodka and bottles of coke to make life bearable i thing i am also a vodka freak now why not i have to sleep somehow, zopiclone didnt work on me made me more awake. if your not on a section after trust is built they allow you to walk the hospital grounds and later day visits home. i cannot get used to being home its to quite and no bright lights. i am still unwell and dont no what going to happen,i didnt want to kill myself my brain had just had enough:weep: