Flapper
22-02-18, 15:42
I found this forum by chance and I'm glad I did! To sum things up I've been suffering with anxiety for 3 to 4 years since I lost my wife to cancer. The strange thing is that for the 8 years that she battled with it I didn't suffer with anything other than an odd hangover! I'm 44 by the way! But now I get all sorts of things related to what I believe is anxiety / depression. It worries me because despite the loss of my wife who I loved with all my heart, I now have a new partner who I am very happy and truly in love with, I have a good job, a nice house, nice cars, some money in the bank etc. etc. but these mental problems just won't go away. I had a really bad panic attack about a year after my wife died which ended up with me in A&E. I really thought I was going to die! Before this I had no clue that this episode would be the start of my anxiety / depression journey but here I am posting on here! I generally keep things in check but just recently I have been getting this weird pushing feeling on the top of my head which is accompanied by dizzy spells and feelings of being spaced out and I get this strange out of body feeling which is really hard to describe. I did have the flu over Christmas and it took until the end of January to fully clear up so I do wonder if this head feeling is an after effect as I have been a bit bunged up but I also wonder if it's anxiety related? I've had my blood pressure checked and it is higher than normal but I do wonder whether this is due to my current lack of fitness and recent weight gain. I have embarked on a healthy eating regime and intend on getting myself back in to the gym but with the way I'm feeling at the moment I have no idea when that will be. I can't even imagine getting on a tread mill or lifting weights right now and this alone is getting me down. Anyway, if anyone can relate to this current condition I would welcome any support but in the meantime I (oddly) look forward to reading through the forum posts and threads. See you around!