nok_tok
24-02-18, 23:38
Ok i have been keeping really well lately on track, excercising and eating healthy to keep my anxiety levels and trying to pace myself
One way i keep myself occupied after severe depression in photographing birds
So this evening i decided this evening that i would quickly pop over the park round the corner to photograph the crows in the sunset
I needed a snack to lure them, i would normally use nuts but as it was getting late and would be dark soon soi grabbed a fresh chicken fillet from the fridge ( crows love meat) so was ideal
The park was empty, nice evening peaceful, i got the crows to land and a few nice pics, after i took the pics the crows continued to eat the meat.. i walked further down the park to take pics (park is square shaped)
As i walked up i noticed a couple with 4 dogs chasing off the crow, i noticed the dog stopped at the meat the crow was eating the owner was far ahead of the dog, i saw he went back and shooed it away from the meat.. by this time i walked on and left the park.
Anyway i didnt think much of it but i noticed a friend had posted up a notice on facebook today warning people about a spate of poisoned meat being left in parks.. one park only 4 miles from home.. obviously my meat is completly inncoent but now im thinking what if the owner sent out warnings about my meat or if someone saw me putting meat out.. and i get the blame ..oh god i feel so stupid.. i want to go back to the park in the dark to retrive it but dont want to look more dodgey.. i feel really stupid.. really paranoid and suicidal as im paranoid im some sort of prome suspect. I know paranioa makes you overthink but i feel really weird about it and i keep asking myself ‘ why would i take meat to the park’ so stupid of me.. i know my meat is fine but if my dog was eating it i would be concerned if i knew about it..
Please reassure me my mind is doing overtime i feel sick to my stomach as the thought of animal cruelty is sickening
Onviously my extreme paranioa is my face all over the papers as prime suspect. I dont know why im so stupid sometimes
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What should i do? Why does my mind do overtime? I feel so sick inside. How do i rid the suicidal thoughs? Should i go to a&e?
---------- Post added at 21:12 ---------- Previous post was at 21:01 ----------
Just need someone to talk to, am i being ridiculous or should i be concerned?
---------- Post added at 23:38 ---------- Previous post was at 21:12 ----------
:(
One way i keep myself occupied after severe depression in photographing birds
So this evening i decided this evening that i would quickly pop over the park round the corner to photograph the crows in the sunset
I needed a snack to lure them, i would normally use nuts but as it was getting late and would be dark soon soi grabbed a fresh chicken fillet from the fridge ( crows love meat) so was ideal
The park was empty, nice evening peaceful, i got the crows to land and a few nice pics, after i took the pics the crows continued to eat the meat.. i walked further down the park to take pics (park is square shaped)
As i walked up i noticed a couple with 4 dogs chasing off the crow, i noticed the dog stopped at the meat the crow was eating the owner was far ahead of the dog, i saw he went back and shooed it away from the meat.. by this time i walked on and left the park.
Anyway i didnt think much of it but i noticed a friend had posted up a notice on facebook today warning people about a spate of poisoned meat being left in parks.. one park only 4 miles from home.. obviously my meat is completly inncoent but now im thinking what if the owner sent out warnings about my meat or if someone saw me putting meat out.. and i get the blame ..oh god i feel so stupid.. i want to go back to the park in the dark to retrive it but dont want to look more dodgey.. i feel really stupid.. really paranoid and suicidal as im paranoid im some sort of prome suspect. I know paranioa makes you overthink but i feel really weird about it and i keep asking myself ‘ why would i take meat to the park’ so stupid of me.. i know my meat is fine but if my dog was eating it i would be concerned if i knew about it..
Please reassure me my mind is doing overtime i feel sick to my stomach as the thought of animal cruelty is sickening
Onviously my extreme paranioa is my face all over the papers as prime suspect. I dont know why im so stupid sometimes
---------- Post added at 21:01 ---------- Previous post was at 20:42 ----------
What should i do? Why does my mind do overtime? I feel so sick inside. How do i rid the suicidal thoughs? Should i go to a&e?
---------- Post added at 21:12 ---------- Previous post was at 21:01 ----------
Just need someone to talk to, am i being ridiculous or should i be concerned?
---------- Post added at 23:38 ---------- Previous post was at 21:12 ----------
:(