JustBenn
18-03-18, 20:16
I don't feel me anymore I haven't been me since about 2015, haven't really noticed till about recently, I don't feel happy and cheery anymore. In 2015 I got caught up in an unrequated love situation with a best friend and it sort of messed me up big time, none of which are her fault. I no longer talk to her but I haven't recovered since and i s think about her everyday, sometimes I over think scenarios in my head about her over and over till it puts me in a bad mood, I just can't get out. I used to think This was normal and it's a part of being an adult and a part of greif. but this can't be right!!! Sometimes I just want to just be by myself and just sit there thinking about her and listening to sad music and think about her and I get irritated when my mum disturbs me from it.
I've been looking thru some old text messages and i used to be a hilarious guy and have very quick witted replies but fast forward 3 years, it takes me about 2 to 3 minutes to think of something to reply with, my brain just can't think anymore.
My head feels blank, empty, I feel dumb now, feels like there's an black void, no happiness just plain, and my thoughts are muddled up and disorganised when I talk to people in person, words don't come out right.
I've had health anxiety since 2010 but thay just comes and goes even a year goes by without worrying.
It's been so long that I don't even know what I'm experiencing is normal. All I know is, I've turned into a sensitive wuss where as in 2015, I wouldn't have better an eye lid about what I reply with or not.
Is this severe enough for any meds or not? I just need a bit of help. If not Citalapram but something more theriputic and less intense.
I've been looking thru some old text messages and i used to be a hilarious guy and have very quick witted replies but fast forward 3 years, it takes me about 2 to 3 minutes to think of something to reply with, my brain just can't think anymore.
My head feels blank, empty, I feel dumb now, feels like there's an black void, no happiness just plain, and my thoughts are muddled up and disorganised when I talk to people in person, words don't come out right.
I've had health anxiety since 2010 but thay just comes and goes even a year goes by without worrying.
It's been so long that I don't even know what I'm experiencing is normal. All I know is, I've turned into a sensitive wuss where as in 2015, I wouldn't have better an eye lid about what I reply with or not.
Is this severe enough for any meds or not? I just need a bit of help. If not Citalapram but something more theriputic and less intense.