josephine
12-07-07, 10:14
Hi,
I am feeling pretty bad at the moment. My anxiety is dragging me down and giving me no hope for the future. My son starts secondary school in Sept and i set myself a goal to get a job then, but the thought terrifies me. Everyone at his primary school are excited about the changes, but i dont want change, the only thing that i do is take and pick my son up from school, it makes me feel i am doing something positive and is the only social outlet i have. Now that is being taken away from me and i fear i willbcome even more useless thn i am now. My son has got in to a really good school and i am so proud but it scares me to think i will have to let him go bit by bit. He is growing up and i have focused on him so much but i am becoming more and more redundant. I have no idea what i will do when i no longer am needed to take him to school and back.
I want to look ahead, get a job(i need the money!!!!) but my general and social anxiety is crippling me. Just want to turn the clock back and start all over again.
I am so frightened of whats to come.
I am seeing a psychologist tomorrow, i am anxious, but maybe she will help.
Just want to enjoy life not be scared of it.
Ther is so much i want to do.
What a waste.
Sorry to waffle, but feel if i keep going on to my husband and parents i will drive them crazy. No one else to talk to.
Josephinex
I am feeling pretty bad at the moment. My anxiety is dragging me down and giving me no hope for the future. My son starts secondary school in Sept and i set myself a goal to get a job then, but the thought terrifies me. Everyone at his primary school are excited about the changes, but i dont want change, the only thing that i do is take and pick my son up from school, it makes me feel i am doing something positive and is the only social outlet i have. Now that is being taken away from me and i fear i willbcome even more useless thn i am now. My son has got in to a really good school and i am so proud but it scares me to think i will have to let him go bit by bit. He is growing up and i have focused on him so much but i am becoming more and more redundant. I have no idea what i will do when i no longer am needed to take him to school and back.
I want to look ahead, get a job(i need the money!!!!) but my general and social anxiety is crippling me. Just want to turn the clock back and start all over again.
I am so frightened of whats to come.
I am seeing a psychologist tomorrow, i am anxious, but maybe she will help.
Just want to enjoy life not be scared of it.
Ther is so much i want to do.
What a waste.
Sorry to waffle, but feel if i keep going on to my husband and parents i will drive them crazy. No one else to talk to.
Josephinex