Samy
20-03-18, 20:23
Hi, I’m Sam. 22 year old college student from Los Angeles Ca.
This past year my mind has moved from illness to illness, right now rabies has been the main source of my extreme anxiety. It’s become so bad that I’m scared to walk outside at night or even day in some areas because I’m always scared a bat is going to bite or scratch me somehow and I’ll get rabies and die.. basically.
It’s been getting so bad that I got 4 doses (which were unnecessary) of anti rabies shots just because I “thought” something may have scratches me, when I know I didn’t feel or see anything touch me.
Now I always just instantly think a bat bit me or an animal with rabies cut me or bit me everytime I feel any single little tickle/itch/or small pinch, I’ll instantly think it’s a bat and have my family look for bite marks in that area.. which is driving them crazy. Basically I just want some advice.. or someone to talk to that’s going through similar situations, I’m in constant fear that I’m going to die of rabies, and my mind keeps playing tricks on me trying to force logic out. It’s like I make up moments that didn’t even happen about maybe seeing a bat etc etc, it’s like a broken record will start playing over and over in my head, it’s like my mind wants to make me believe I did get attacked by something. And even like a feeling of a small itch or slightest scratch or little tap I’ll always freak out, even if I’m in my room! I’ll start thinking oh crap! What if a bat got in? Ugh..
Anyways sorry if half of this was babble I just need someone to talk to... I used to never be like his.
This past year my mind has moved from illness to illness, right now rabies has been the main source of my extreme anxiety. It’s become so bad that I’m scared to walk outside at night or even day in some areas because I’m always scared a bat is going to bite or scratch me somehow and I’ll get rabies and die.. basically.
It’s been getting so bad that I got 4 doses (which were unnecessary) of anti rabies shots just because I “thought” something may have scratches me, when I know I didn’t feel or see anything touch me.
Now I always just instantly think a bat bit me or an animal with rabies cut me or bit me everytime I feel any single little tickle/itch/or small pinch, I’ll instantly think it’s a bat and have my family look for bite marks in that area.. which is driving them crazy. Basically I just want some advice.. or someone to talk to that’s going through similar situations, I’m in constant fear that I’m going to die of rabies, and my mind keeps playing tricks on me trying to force logic out. It’s like I make up moments that didn’t even happen about maybe seeing a bat etc etc, it’s like a broken record will start playing over and over in my head, it’s like my mind wants to make me believe I did get attacked by something. And even like a feeling of a small itch or slightest scratch or little tap I’ll always freak out, even if I’m in my room! I’ll start thinking oh crap! What if a bat got in? Ugh..
Anyways sorry if half of this was babble I just need someone to talk to... I used to never be like his.