bulan
20-03-18, 22:41
I wonder if anyone else has experienced this... I haven't struggled with intense health anxiety for a while. 2014 was my worst year, and I've been recovering ever since, with ups and downs of course. I've relapsed a little this year for a number of reasons... 1) my Mom developed HA and I wasn't strong enough not to let it affect me, 2) 2018 has been the year of illness and strange symptoms for most of my family, 3) we have highly stressful things going on in our lives, and I'm not handling them well, nor sleeping well.
But this week's intense HA episode was mainly triggered by two intensely stressful things happening last week: a deeply distressing conflict with one of my relatives, and my sister-in-law's battle against her abusive, narcissistic husband *and* the court system that tends to give abusive men custody of their kids. Both of these situations have triggered feelings of claustrophobia and near panic. This, in turn, triggered a fibromyalgia flare, which has given me a handful of new, worrisome symptoms, which then triggered my HA.
At the very least, I'm thankful now that I recognize the connection between these things.
So the anxiety I've been struggling with the last few days wanted to be focused on my latest symptoms, but I was able to talk myself out of it. The strange experience I mentioned in the title is that my anxiety was suddenly 'homeless.' It couldn't make me fixate on any specific problem, so it was just there... and I didn't know how to deal with that, because I haven't dealt with generalized anxiety before! So at the moment I'm trying to take slow breaths and find an outlet for it. I feel like I was half-successful at dealing with my HA, and I want to deal with what's left. Has anyone had this experience before?
But this week's intense HA episode was mainly triggered by two intensely stressful things happening last week: a deeply distressing conflict with one of my relatives, and my sister-in-law's battle against her abusive, narcissistic husband *and* the court system that tends to give abusive men custody of their kids. Both of these situations have triggered feelings of claustrophobia and near panic. This, in turn, triggered a fibromyalgia flare, which has given me a handful of new, worrisome symptoms, which then triggered my HA.
At the very least, I'm thankful now that I recognize the connection between these things.
So the anxiety I've been struggling with the last few days wanted to be focused on my latest symptoms, but I was able to talk myself out of it. The strange experience I mentioned in the title is that my anxiety was suddenly 'homeless.' It couldn't make me fixate on any specific problem, so it was just there... and I didn't know how to deal with that, because I haven't dealt with generalized anxiety before! So at the moment I'm trying to take slow breaths and find an outlet for it. I feel like I was half-successful at dealing with my HA, and I want to deal with what's left. Has anyone had this experience before?