Waves!!

[Two heads]

Well hello all!
Its been a whlie since i last type a thread, but the way i have felt this week has made me feel i need to.
I have been off meds for nearly three months and have been fine up entil this week.
For the frist time yest in a year i felt that terrible wave come over me last night.I caut help but worry the panic is on its way back.The fear of it makes me feel terrible.I have been feeling very low this week.I dont know if this is whats causeing the panic.I keep worrying in my head that im going to end up back to square one again.
I have had a little stress over the last month over work.I just seem to let everything get to me,i caut seem to trun off.I get angry so quickly as well.
I just feel very scared inside!!!
xxxxxxx

[nomorepanic]

Hi there

Did you mean to close this thread? Only admins can reply to it.

[Two heads]

Thanks nicola,ive opened the thread now.xxx

[Dave777]

Hi, sorry to hear you are feeling low, hope you get better soon mate:hugs:

take care
Davex

[groovygranny]

Hello Two heads,

It was about that time, 3-4mnths, after I finished meds that I had to 'ride the wave' so to speak.

Thought it was all over and done with once I'd come off them. But then I had an 'episode' come right out of the blue.

Initially I thought the same as you - oh no, here we go again! and the fear of it taking a hold once more started to reaer it's ugly head.

However, once I got through this episode I realised that I may have set my sights just a little too high too soon. I vowed that if there was a next time (and there have been a few, if not quite as intense) I would at least be prepared and ready for it. I made up my mind I wasn't going to allow the fear of it happening again to have the upper hand.

Be kind to yourself, and if you can see your way to keep telling yourself you'll not give in to the fear, then when you feel the wave start to build up again - ride it, don't let it wash over you and catch you off balance.

hope this is of some help to you

Take care

:hugs:


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[Piglet]

Great replies there hun.

Are you feeling a bit better today??

Love Piglet :flowers:

[Two heads]

Thanks piglet,groovy grany and dave for your surport!
I dont feel as bad to day,had a cry which helped a little.
Groovy granny you made me feel so much more positive just hearing what you have been though.It sounds like what im feeling now.
Im really trying to keep positive,even if my brain keeps telling me otherwise.
I can be sitting there and all of a sudden its there ,trying to make me fear something that is'nt there if that makes any sense?
Then i just have to be on my own for ten minutes also,entil it passes!
I hope you guys are all feeling good and not letting that gremlin beat you?
xxxxxx

[groovygranny]

Hello Two heads

Glad you're not feeling too bad today.

Nah, when the gremlin tries to boss me around I tell it:

"mind over matter mate.......do your worst - I don't mind and you don't matter!"

That seems to wipe the stupid smirk off it's ugly face !!!

You're doing ok Two heads :hugs:!

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[joy]

my gremlin is called Gordon!!! Anyone else have daft names for the anxiety etc

Joy

[Two heads]

Thanks everybody for your replys!!
Groovygranny your reply made me feel a little bit more positive.
I have found that certain people make me feel down and can even bring on the gremlin.And certain people around me over the last few weeks seem to be taking there negative moods out on me.So i have decided to avoid these people from now on!!!
No i havet got a name for my as yet,just gremlin.But now you mention it joy its about time gremlin did have a name as its hear to stay.So let my gremlin be named ....em.....frank,yes thats it frank.
Today is a good day with our frank but theres still tonight.xxxx

[Jan A]

I have just read this post and it has helped me, I was doing really well until a few months ago GG you replied to my posts and you helped alot. The wave thing is what has happened to me. Coming off citropram I thought this is it I am over it- when the wave came . Over the last few weeks I have steadily let it get the better of me until I spoke to my doctor he suggested taking 5gm (half a tablet) a day to see how I got on, I am finding the waves a little easier to contend with and keep on saying to myself think positive, its the morning jitters that are getting me down. I am contemplating upping my dose to 10gm which I was on last time around, but I felt totally spaced out so really want to persivere with the lower dose and try to learn the mind over matter skills. good luck with your gremlin (i love that) and thank you GG for the support you give.

Jane

[groovygranny]

Hello Two heads and Jane!

So glad you're both feeling a little better :)

Well, it's been quite a while but GG had to practice what she preaches yesterday morning! As this usually proves very difficult I was actually quite chuffed when I managed to do it lol !:blush:

Nearly fell off me surf board twice in the space of an hour! Gremlin was doin' his best to shake me off, the little bugger, (oh, am i allowed to say that?) but he forgot that gremlins can't swim so I gave him a good kick lol !

Hang on in there you two, you're doing good :hugs::hugs:


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[Jan A]

LOL, your post has made me laugh
:hugs:
Jane

[Two heads]

Thanks for your new replys Jan,GG!!
I no what you mean jan,you think thats it then its back.We both must try and beat it.
I dont think the weather is helping where i live.We've had nothing but rain for two and half months.I need the sun shine.....
GG you sound like you are doing great,keep that gremlin at bay!!!!:yesyes:
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[Jan A]

Thanks for your new replys Jan,GG!!
I no what you mean jan,you think thats it then its back.We both must try and beat it.
I dont think the weather is helping where i live.We've had nothing but rain for two and half months.I need the sun shine.....
GG you sound like you are doing great,keep that gremlin at bay!!!!:yesyes:
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I know exactly what you mean about the weather, it has been awful.
we have been really lucky not having any flooding unlike sheffield and hull.

Stay strong

Jane