Jonboy12
27-03-18, 09:41
The feeling is indescribable. This was the 2nd time I have been like this in my life. The first time being about 12 years earlier. Living with a terminal illness must be horrific and to try and compare it with my problem is totally unfair. But in my mind I had a terminal illness and lived with it for months.
I have never liked going to Doctors or dentists etc, not because of any bad experiences but because I just didn’t like it. So when I went for a regular hair cut 4 months ago a trip to the doctors wasn’t even on my mind. I came home washed my hair and then noticed in the mirror a light brown mark on the side of my head.
Only small tan coloured mark that I noticed for the first time after42 years of living. I didn’t think too much about it but occasionally tried to view it in the mirror, which wasn’t easy as it was on the side of my head, just above my ear.
Another month past and another haircut. This time the mark was noticeably bigger. About 10mm long and 6 mm wide, no Sharpe edges, and slightly raised.
Dr Google needed a visit. The news from Dr Google wasn’t good and melanoma was suspected. Panic took hold and too scared to go to the real doctors for the confirmation.
Days and weeks pasted and I was looking everywhere for something else this could be. No images online matched mine and it kept throwing back to the big C…. Everywhere I looked it hit me.
Life has a funny way of almost jibbing you. I am a business man and a family man and people and friends probably thought me to be a little grumpy, but I hid my problem deep inside and carried on, only panicking alone or at night waiting for something, I don’t even know what.
Turn the radio on, I heard adverts for” book your own funeral”, “cancer support” etc, Turn on the TV more cancer adverts, I even had 3 emails enquiring about business that popped up “Name” “Skin Cancer research specialist” as the person enquiring about my business worked at the local hospital, the email was nothing to do with skin cancer, but everywhere I looked it was crying out to me CANCER. I was panicking inside to say the least.
The mark grew over a month, thicker and larger, until my whole side of head went red and swollen and I had to show my wife, who up until now knew nothing as my longer hair covered it up.
I asked her to book me in to the doctors, and in the few months I’d panicked alone I had noticed other moles and warts on my body and decided I needed to end this feeling and get it sorted one way or another. I know not everyone gets to this point so quickly and holds it inside longer, but I had holidays etc coming up that I just wouldn’t enjoy with this looming over me.
Yesterday I went to the doctors to be told I was dying………. Only he told me I had Seborrheic keratosis due to getting older and a type of dermatitis on my head that would clear with a change of shampoo. Absolutely nothing to do with the C word or anything else to at all worry about.
I am so relieved and happy right now, but wanted to share this to anyone else feeling this way. Easy to say I know, but go to the Doctors as this worry takes more time off your life than most of these phantom illnesses ever will.
Thanks for listening
I have never liked going to Doctors or dentists etc, not because of any bad experiences but because I just didn’t like it. So when I went for a regular hair cut 4 months ago a trip to the doctors wasn’t even on my mind. I came home washed my hair and then noticed in the mirror a light brown mark on the side of my head.
Only small tan coloured mark that I noticed for the first time after42 years of living. I didn’t think too much about it but occasionally tried to view it in the mirror, which wasn’t easy as it was on the side of my head, just above my ear.
Another month past and another haircut. This time the mark was noticeably bigger. About 10mm long and 6 mm wide, no Sharpe edges, and slightly raised.
Dr Google needed a visit. The news from Dr Google wasn’t good and melanoma was suspected. Panic took hold and too scared to go to the real doctors for the confirmation.
Days and weeks pasted and I was looking everywhere for something else this could be. No images online matched mine and it kept throwing back to the big C…. Everywhere I looked it hit me.
Life has a funny way of almost jibbing you. I am a business man and a family man and people and friends probably thought me to be a little grumpy, but I hid my problem deep inside and carried on, only panicking alone or at night waiting for something, I don’t even know what.
Turn the radio on, I heard adverts for” book your own funeral”, “cancer support” etc, Turn on the TV more cancer adverts, I even had 3 emails enquiring about business that popped up “Name” “Skin Cancer research specialist” as the person enquiring about my business worked at the local hospital, the email was nothing to do with skin cancer, but everywhere I looked it was crying out to me CANCER. I was panicking inside to say the least.
The mark grew over a month, thicker and larger, until my whole side of head went red and swollen and I had to show my wife, who up until now knew nothing as my longer hair covered it up.
I asked her to book me in to the doctors, and in the few months I’d panicked alone I had noticed other moles and warts on my body and decided I needed to end this feeling and get it sorted one way or another. I know not everyone gets to this point so quickly and holds it inside longer, but I had holidays etc coming up that I just wouldn’t enjoy with this looming over me.
Yesterday I went to the doctors to be told I was dying………. Only he told me I had Seborrheic keratosis due to getting older and a type of dermatitis on my head that would clear with a change of shampoo. Absolutely nothing to do with the C word or anything else to at all worry about.
I am so relieved and happy right now, but wanted to share this to anyone else feeling this way. Easy to say I know, but go to the Doctors as this worry takes more time off your life than most of these phantom illnesses ever will.
Thanks for listening